Tuesday, October 7, 2014
Gone Girl
Popular book turned into a movie out now. And Pat promised to take me. Not the type of book I usually read, but Pat was able to get the book for me for 50 cents. Story there is a customer returned it to Fry's after reading the fist 20 pages. Fry's does not do returns on books. The customer got mad about the policy and threw the book at him. His boss was going to let some other employee have it for 25 cents, but they couldn't find anything to ring up for that price, but Pat found something for the 50 cent price so he got to bring the book home. I was getting curious about the book because there were many previews of the movie in the newspaper. Since I had read so much about the movie I read the ending first and decided to read the book. I loved it! Can't wait to go to the movies to see how well they did the book. It's always so very disappointing seeing a movie after you read the book, but in all the previews of the movie, it reminds you that it's a movie not a book. So at least they're being honest! I asked on Facebook if anyone read anything by the author and my first comment was Gone Girl was dark, so she wouldn't read anything else. I didn't think Gone Girl was that dark, so I'll have to look into the other books myself to see if they sound good.
Labwork
Is it any wonder it took me 2 weeks to go have lab work done. I have
horrible veins, I know a lot of people do, but I'm also on blood
thinners so thank you very much I'd rather not get stuck multiple times. And I was cold, ha it was freezing in the office, no wonder I was cold. She (lab chick) had to warm up my hands with the baby hot pad things to even find veins.
Of course the lab work is fasting and I was starving, and I did drink
30 ounces of water, for them to find a vein ha! and the leave a sample,
Which is my other fear I can't seem to go on command very well, even
though I do feel the need to go....Oh if I didn't need this lab work and
see the doctor before the end of the month for insurance it probably
still wouldn't have happened, yet...
Tuesday, September 2, 2014
Stress
young lady confidently walked around the room while leading and explaining
stress management to an audience with a raised glass of water. Everyone knew
she was going to ask the ultimate question, 'half empty or half full?'
She fooled them all .... "How heavy is this glass of water?" she inquired with
a smile. Answers called out ranged from 8 oz. to 20 oz.
She replied , "The absolute weight doesn't matter. It depends on how long I hold it. If I hold it for a minute, that's not a problem. If I hold it for an hour, I'll have an ache in my right arm.
If I hold it for a day, you'll have to call an ambulance. In each case it's the same weight, but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes." She continued, "and that's the way it is with stress. If we carry our burdens all the time, sooner or later, as the burden becomes increasingly heavy, we won't be able to carry on."
"As with the glass of water, you have to put it down for a while and rest before holding it again. When we're refreshed, we can carry on with the burden - holding stress longer and better each time practiced. So, as early in the evening as you can, put all your burdens down. Don't carry them through the evening and into the night.
1 * Accept the fact that some days you're the pigeon and some days you're the statue!
2 * Always keep your words soft and sweet just in case you have to eat them.
3 * Always read stuff that will make you look good if you die in the middle of it.
4 * Drive carefully... It's not only cars that can be recalled by their Maker.
5 * If you can't be kind, at least have the decency to be vague.
6 * If you lend someone $20 and never see that person again, it was probably worth it.
7 * It may be that your sole purpose in life is simply to serve as a warning to others.
8 * Never buy a car you can't push.
9 * Never put both feet in your mouth at the same time, because then you won't have a leg to stand on.
10 * Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance.
11 * Since it's the early worm that gets eaten by the bird, sleep late.
12 * The second mouse gets the cheese.
13 * When everything's coming your way, you're in the wrong lane.
14 * Birthdays are good for you. The more you have, the longer you live.
15 * Some mistakes are too much fun to make only once.
16 * We could learn a lot from crayons. Some are sharp, some are pretty and some are dull. Some have weird names and all are different colors, but they all have to live in the same box.
17 * A truly happy person is one who can enjoy the scenery on a detour.
18 * Have an awesome day and know that someone has thought about you today.
AND MOST IMPORTANTLY
19 * Save the earth..... It's the only planet with chocolate!
She replied , "The absolute weight doesn't matter. It depends on how long I hold it. If I hold it for a minute, that's not a problem. If I hold it for an hour, I'll have an ache in my right arm.
If I hold it for a day, you'll have to call an ambulance. In each case it's the same weight, but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes." She continued, "and that's the way it is with stress. If we carry our burdens all the time, sooner or later, as the burden becomes increasingly heavy, we won't be able to carry on."
"As with the glass of water, you have to put it down for a while and rest before holding it again. When we're refreshed, we can carry on with the burden - holding stress longer and better each time practiced. So, as early in the evening as you can, put all your burdens down. Don't carry them through the evening and into the night.
1 * Accept the fact that some days you're the pigeon and some days you're the statue!
2 * Always keep your words soft and sweet just in case you have to eat them.
3 * Always read stuff that will make you look good if you die in the middle of it.
4 * Drive carefully... It's not only cars that can be recalled by their Maker.
5 * If you can't be kind, at least have the decency to be vague.
6 * If you lend someone $20 and never see that person again, it was probably worth it.
7 * It may be that your sole purpose in life is simply to serve as a warning to others.
8 * Never buy a car you can't push.
9 * Never put both feet in your mouth at the same time, because then you won't have a leg to stand on.
10 * Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance.
11 * Since it's the early worm that gets eaten by the bird, sleep late.
12 * The second mouse gets the cheese.
13 * When everything's coming your way, you're in the wrong lane.
14 * Birthdays are good for you. The more you have, the longer you live.
15 * Some mistakes are too much fun to make only once.
16 * We could learn a lot from crayons. Some are sharp, some are pretty and some are dull. Some have weird names and all are different colors, but they all have to live in the same box.
17 * A truly happy person is one who can enjoy the scenery on a detour.
18 * Have an awesome day and know that someone has thought about you today.
AND MOST IMPORTANTLY
19 * Save the earth..... It's the only planet with chocolate!
Wednesday, August 27, 2014
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Friday, August 22, 2014
Teenagers
Teens are so challenging. Life is hard on them and us as parents and as a family. Funny thing is they know the family rules they just seem to "forget" them. Unless you break a rule!
I just finished reading a novel about a Amish teen. And while the Amish don't have all the modern technologies that Englisher have, the character struggled with making good choices. Choices that may harm themselves and others. Like telling their parents they are going to work, but really driving with man in a rain storm, and being alone with the man for hours in a deserted barn. So many things could have gone wrong, or happened, yet even a shelter Amish girl made bad choices.
Does that give me hope? Does is frighten more? Yes, to both but also it sort of helps knowing that even very strict religious and sheltered teens don't make great choices.
I think they need control of their lives, but they just don't have enough life experience to know if they are making good choices or not. I just pray that someday 10 o more years from now, we all teens included can look back at this laugh and rejoice they are past this time of their lives.
I just finished reading a novel about a Amish teen. And while the Amish don't have all the modern technologies that Englisher have, the character struggled with making good choices. Choices that may harm themselves and others. Like telling their parents they are going to work, but really driving with man in a rain storm, and being alone with the man for hours in a deserted barn. So many things could have gone wrong, or happened, yet even a shelter Amish girl made bad choices.
Does that give me hope? Does is frighten more? Yes, to both but also it sort of helps knowing that even very strict religious and sheltered teens don't make great choices.
I think they need control of their lives, but they just don't have enough life experience to know if they are making good choices or not. I just pray that someday 10 o more years from now, we all teens included can look back at this laugh and rejoice they are past this time of their lives.
Tuesday, August 12, 2014
I should have known
I should have known it was too easy to get a job at Sunrise. My references did not check out. Scott had sent me this huge text saying he did the best he could with giving me a reference but under the circumstances of my walking out last Wednesday on them, he tried not to say why I left. WYF I am beyond hurting. I am so sick of the constant struggle. Over and over and over....
Sunday, August 10, 2014
Joseph and Michaela sitting in a tree....
KISSING. First comes love, then comes marriage....
Joseph proposed to Michaela on Friday night! He went to Michaela's mom and asked her first. I am so proud of him!
They signed a lease for a townhouse, and will move in September.
Joseph proposed to Michaela on Friday night! He went to Michaela's mom and asked her first. I am so proud of him!
They signed a lease for a townhouse, and will move in September.
Probation Officer
Pat and I went with Sarah on Tuesday to meet her probation officer. After being in the incorrect buildings twice before making it to the correct place, we met her. Sarah has to write a letter of apology to JC Penny do 15 hours of community service and do a life skill workbook with either Pat or myself. I think she got off easy. I hope this will be enough to keep her from stealing again. It won't keep her away from weed, because she doesn't think there is anything wrong with that.
She was so mad at me when I told the PO I wanted her to do community service and a class. Pat told her that's what Heidi said. That made me mad. He could have left that our decision and not blame Heidi. We need to get her to understand that drinking, using pot, and stealing are not acceptable.
My Broken Heart
On my birthday I got a text from the children's pastor of Desert Breeze Community Church. He wanted me to come in the next day for a meeting. Such an idiot he didn't even know it was my birthday or that I was in PA.
Even though I was struggling mightily of jet lag, I was at church all weekend long. 4 hours Saturday afternoon setting up for August, then the 3 services. It was so very hard. I really wanted to be in bed sleeping.
Kevin the mouse that he is couldn't talk to me in person, but texted me on Sunday evening asking me to come in on Wednesday afternoon for the meeting.
I knew when both Kevin and Scott were in the room they were going to fire me. Kevin started with how great I am, but oh so quietly I could barely hear the mouse.
They said the reason for my dismal is because there had be complaints about my "customer service". But could not give me any examples. I left the office crying hysterically. and cried pretty much no stop for 2 days. Now I only cry when I think about it, which is often.
I posted on Facebook that I now need a part-time job. I had an interview the next day for a very small position at Sunrise Elementary. I was hired on the spot. Tomorrow morning I will have to go to the district and fill out my hire paperwork, and I will start at 10:45 AM. Hopefully I can also sub to incress my income some. I can't take a full-time job because I can't make more that $1000 a month or I will lose my disability benefits.
My heart is so broken. I can't imagine attending DBCC and I hate them for that. I have so may lovely people that are so close to my heart.
This on top of everything else is just too much.
Even though I was struggling mightily of jet lag, I was at church all weekend long. 4 hours Saturday afternoon setting up for August, then the 3 services. It was so very hard. I really wanted to be in bed sleeping.
Kevin the mouse that he is couldn't talk to me in person, but texted me on Sunday evening asking me to come in on Wednesday afternoon for the meeting.
I knew when both Kevin and Scott were in the room they were going to fire me. Kevin started with how great I am, but oh so quietly I could barely hear the mouse.
They said the reason for my dismal is because there had be complaints about my "customer service". But could not give me any examples. I left the office crying hysterically. and cried pretty much no stop for 2 days. Now I only cry when I think about it, which is often.
I posted on Facebook that I now need a part-time job. I had an interview the next day for a very small position at Sunrise Elementary. I was hired on the spot. Tomorrow morning I will have to go to the district and fill out my hire paperwork, and I will start at 10:45 AM. Hopefully I can also sub to incress my income some. I can't take a full-time job because I can't make more that $1000 a month or I will lose my disability benefits.
My heart is so broken. I can't imagine attending DBCC and I hate them for that. I have so may lovely people that are so close to my heart.
This on top of everything else is just too much.
Monday, August 4, 2014
PA trip
I worked very hard babysitting 3 days a week, 10 hour days. But I did it. I made it to my 30th high school reunion.
Pat and I flew into Pittsburgh on Thursday July 24th. We rented a car and drove to Clearfield. Paul and Pat Young offered us a place to stay. They are such a lovely couple. It was 11:30 PM when we finally arrived at their house.
Friday after sleeping in we went and picked Mackie and Diane up, Mackie dove us around town, while we snapped picture after picture. Went back to Mackie's house and he showed us all the stuff they are entering into the fair. I made the mistake of needing to use the bathroom while there. Oh my goodness that house :(
We took Mackie, Marie and Diane to Sids for dinner. Then they had to leave, so we went to the Ritz to see a movie.
Saturday was the reunion. I had a hard time recognizing many people, other than the ones I was very close with. It was a interesting evening. Sure wish more would have made it.
Sunday we went to Emmanuel Methodist church for services at 11 AM, asked the pastor if we could take pictures inside the church, other than a new addition, not much has changed. After church we ate downtown at Scotto's, I couldn't find Mabel's pizza like I had wanted too. Met up with Debbie Buckley Thomas at her house, visited for hours, on the way home, we stopped at Mary Beth McMasters Ternaway's house and sat on the front porch and talked, while a storm raged on and on.
Monday we went to the fair, all day long. Ate all the famous junk. Sat in the grandstand for parade with Mary Beth, Janel and her family where there and Janel and I talked for a long time, it was so great! Went and sat with Mackie and family for the fireworks, Pat was so excited we were so close to them. I hated the noise.
Tuesday my birthday. We went to lunch with Mackie and family in Dubois "Hoss" then went to Walmart to buy some chips to bring home. Pat and I rested for a bit, then went bowling, and then ice cream.
Slept in again on Wednesday, drove around Clearfield and took more pictures. Paul grilled pork chops and potatoes for dinner, with fresh from his garden broccoli and cucumbers, so very yummy.
Thursday travel day, left Clearfield abot 9 AM, got to Pittsburgh around 12, dropped the rental car off, checked in at airport, arrived in Phoenix at 5 PM, but since we lost 3 hours flying home we traveled 11 hours!
Pat and I flew into Pittsburgh on Thursday July 24th. We rented a car and drove to Clearfield. Paul and Pat Young offered us a place to stay. They are such a lovely couple. It was 11:30 PM when we finally arrived at their house.
Friday after sleeping in we went and picked Mackie and Diane up, Mackie dove us around town, while we snapped picture after picture. Went back to Mackie's house and he showed us all the stuff they are entering into the fair. I made the mistake of needing to use the bathroom while there. Oh my goodness that house :(
We took Mackie, Marie and Diane to Sids for dinner. Then they had to leave, so we went to the Ritz to see a movie.
Saturday was the reunion. I had a hard time recognizing many people, other than the ones I was very close with. It was a interesting evening. Sure wish more would have made it.
Sunday we went to Emmanuel Methodist church for services at 11 AM, asked the pastor if we could take pictures inside the church, other than a new addition, not much has changed. After church we ate downtown at Scotto's, I couldn't find Mabel's pizza like I had wanted too. Met up with Debbie Buckley Thomas at her house, visited for hours, on the way home, we stopped at Mary Beth McMasters Ternaway's house and sat on the front porch and talked, while a storm raged on and on.
Monday we went to the fair, all day long. Ate all the famous junk. Sat in the grandstand for parade with Mary Beth, Janel and her family where there and Janel and I talked for a long time, it was so great! Went and sat with Mackie and family for the fireworks, Pat was so excited we were so close to them. I hated the noise.
Tuesday my birthday. We went to lunch with Mackie and family in Dubois "Hoss" then went to Walmart to buy some chips to bring home. Pat and I rested for a bit, then went bowling, and then ice cream.
Slept in again on Wednesday, drove around Clearfield and took more pictures. Paul grilled pork chops and potatoes for dinner, with fresh from his garden broccoli and cucumbers, so very yummy.
Thursday travel day, left Clearfield abot 9 AM, got to Pittsburgh around 12, dropped the rental car off, checked in at airport, arrived in Phoenix at 5 PM, but since we lost 3 hours flying home we traveled 11 hours!
Monday, December 3, 2012
So...
It's been awhile. But I've thought of several things I want to remember, so... I thought why don't I blog them! In no way will I remember them all now, or in order.
My girls will be awesome mothers one day. I just can't wait! We took care of a friend's precious 3 year old daughter over the weekend. It was so fun watching the girls with her. They are really good with my great nephew, too, but since was over a longer period of time I really could see how awesome they are! And they even got along way better with each other! Here's some examples Sarah was awesome laying down with her until she fell asleep. They both followed through with getting her to listen to them. Rachel asked her take the paper napkin out of her mouth and when she refused, Rachel took the stuffed dog she fell in love with until she not only took it out of her mouth but threw it away to get the dog back. I high 5'd Rachel and said you learned from the best! It was kinda funny last night, I went to our church's Woman's Christmas tea and asked Pat if she brushed her teeth and prayed before bed. He forgot. Rachel says "he's out of practice" which I thought was pretty funny last night, until this morning when I couldn't find her shoes to take her to pre-school. Then I remembered I didn't get her ready for bed, so I didn't feel so bad.
Last night Rachel was so wound up. She has been taking about college since the beginning of the school year, but last night she wanted details about scholarships and costs and telling me how she's going to get a job when she's 16 to start saving for college. I think it's so amazing she already has a long term goal for herself!
I am quite tired of our toilets in our house. The hall one had been leaking and flooding the bathroom all the time. Pat finally fixed it last week. The master bathroom has had an issue with not flushing since we had it replaced several years ago. Last night I couldn't sleep yet again. Not sleeping is getting old. Anyway at 3:30 in the morning I got out of bed to go to the bathroom, I didn't turn on the light, I walked into water. the water pipe thing was pouring out water. I was so not happy. Joseph was still awake, so I went to get him to help. He threw the rug in the shower and threw towels on the floor. I didn't have the energy to clean it up better or fight with him. So... that's how we left it, until I go home this morning.
I now am on a thyroid medicine. Which is really a pain. Because I have to take it on an empty stomach and then can't eat or take my other meds for 1 to 2 hours. Today I forgot to take it when I woke up Sarah for school, so it was late when I could finally eat this morning, and I was awake almost all night :(
I made a goal for myself to go to the gym every day or I would have to walk around the block, which I totally hate. I was doing really good at my goal until I got the worst toothache I have ever had. I didn't go to the gym or walk for 2 weeks. The pain was relentless I couldn't eat, it was one of the worst pain I've ever had, and that's saying a lot for me who is always in pain. Went to the dentist, he didn't really no what the problem was, so he wanted to fill the tooth beside the one that I thought was causing the pain. I had to wait over the weekend for this horrid idea. The weekend was so painful. So, I see him on Monday, and he decides I need to have a root canal, so I have to go to someone else. Luckily they can see me on Tuesday. I go to him, and he says it probably won't help me to do a root canal on 2 of my teeth, so... he sends me to the oral surgeon, who I got in right away. Only my INR was 4.1 which is too high so.. I had to wait until it was lower than 3.0 So... after fighting with the nurse from my doctor's office I got it down below 3.0 on Thursday, but the surgeon was in Mesa that day. So.. I had to wait until Friday to have the tooth pulled. Then I had to wait over an hour while they checked with my doctor to see if it was OK for them to do it! The surgeon was just going to pull it in Tuesday until I said my INR was so high! My doctor doesn't work on Friday so... finally they told me what the hold up was, when I told them what my INR was they took me back, that's what they needed to know, only my doctor's office didn't even know yet since I test myself at home and call them, but I hadn't even called them yet, I wanted that tooth out and didn't even think about it. Once I'm finally back the tooth was out in less than 15 minutes. I was walking out the door when the nurse comes to get me she forgot to take an x-ray, so... I had to go back in, which took 30 seconds and I was on my way home. The numbing medicine they gave me at first wasn't enough so...the surgeon shot in more. On the drive home I could barely keep my left eye open, it was so weird. The pain was horrible for the first 12 hours after the numbing medicine wore off. I woke up in the morning with a terribly swollen cheek and a bruise that lasted for 10 days :(
That's all I can remember for now. So... when I can remember what else I want to remember I'll be back, unless I forget!
My girls will be awesome mothers one day. I just can't wait! We took care of a friend's precious 3 year old daughter over the weekend. It was so fun watching the girls with her. They are really good with my great nephew, too, but since was over a longer period of time I really could see how awesome they are! And they even got along way better with each other! Here's some examples Sarah was awesome laying down with her until she fell asleep. They both followed through with getting her to listen to them. Rachel asked her take the paper napkin out of her mouth and when she refused, Rachel took the stuffed dog she fell in love with until she not only took it out of her mouth but threw it away to get the dog back. I high 5'd Rachel and said you learned from the best! It was kinda funny last night, I went to our church's Woman's Christmas tea and asked Pat if she brushed her teeth and prayed before bed. He forgot. Rachel says "he's out of practice" which I thought was pretty funny last night, until this morning when I couldn't find her shoes to take her to pre-school. Then I remembered I didn't get her ready for bed, so I didn't feel so bad.
Last night Rachel was so wound up. She has been taking about college since the beginning of the school year, but last night she wanted details about scholarships and costs and telling me how she's going to get a job when she's 16 to start saving for college. I think it's so amazing she already has a long term goal for herself!
I am quite tired of our toilets in our house. The hall one had been leaking and flooding the bathroom all the time. Pat finally fixed it last week. The master bathroom has had an issue with not flushing since we had it replaced several years ago. Last night I couldn't sleep yet again. Not sleeping is getting old. Anyway at 3:30 in the morning I got out of bed to go to the bathroom, I didn't turn on the light, I walked into water. the water pipe thing was pouring out water. I was so not happy. Joseph was still awake, so I went to get him to help. He threw the rug in the shower and threw towels on the floor. I didn't have the energy to clean it up better or fight with him. So... that's how we left it, until I go home this morning.
I now am on a thyroid medicine. Which is really a pain. Because I have to take it on an empty stomach and then can't eat or take my other meds for 1 to 2 hours. Today I forgot to take it when I woke up Sarah for school, so it was late when I could finally eat this morning, and I was awake almost all night :(
I made a goal for myself to go to the gym every day or I would have to walk around the block, which I totally hate. I was doing really good at my goal until I got the worst toothache I have ever had. I didn't go to the gym or walk for 2 weeks. The pain was relentless I couldn't eat, it was one of the worst pain I've ever had, and that's saying a lot for me who is always in pain. Went to the dentist, he didn't really no what the problem was, so he wanted to fill the tooth beside the one that I thought was causing the pain. I had to wait over the weekend for this horrid idea. The weekend was so painful. So, I see him on Monday, and he decides I need to have a root canal, so I have to go to someone else. Luckily they can see me on Tuesday. I go to him, and he says it probably won't help me to do a root canal on 2 of my teeth, so... he sends me to the oral surgeon, who I got in right away. Only my INR was 4.1 which is too high so.. I had to wait until it was lower than 3.0 So... after fighting with the nurse from my doctor's office I got it down below 3.0 on Thursday, but the surgeon was in Mesa that day. So.. I had to wait until Friday to have the tooth pulled. Then I had to wait over an hour while they checked with my doctor to see if it was OK for them to do it! The surgeon was just going to pull it in Tuesday until I said my INR was so high! My doctor doesn't work on Friday so... finally they told me what the hold up was, when I told them what my INR was they took me back, that's what they needed to know, only my doctor's office didn't even know yet since I test myself at home and call them, but I hadn't even called them yet, I wanted that tooth out and didn't even think about it. Once I'm finally back the tooth was out in less than 15 minutes. I was walking out the door when the nurse comes to get me she forgot to take an x-ray, so... I had to go back in, which took 30 seconds and I was on my way home. The numbing medicine they gave me at first wasn't enough so...the surgeon shot in more. On the drive home I could barely keep my left eye open, it was so weird. The pain was horrible for the first 12 hours after the numbing medicine wore off. I woke up in the morning with a terribly swollen cheek and a bruise that lasted for 10 days :(
That's all I can remember for now. So... when I can remember what else I want to remember I'll be back, unless I forget!
Monday, October 29, 2012
Frustrations- with FIL's girl friend
Her name is Virgina but she goes by Ginger. She is starting to bother me. She invited me to go to lunch last week. She cancelled an hour before we where to go, I'll sure she was nervous and gave herself a stomach ache. OK, whatever I was not excited about going to lunch with her.
Friday night she goes to the DV football game. It's windy and it's a little cool because of the wind. By no means was it freezing. She had to leave. So, I sat in the stands for over an hour alone.
Saturday, my FIL offered to drive to Flagstaff to watch DV band compete. He drove more than 1/2 way there then she told him he would drive. I did not feel comfortable with her driving, she was all over the place. We ate before going to NAU for the competition, she was so weird about paying FIL for her sandwich and only eating half, to save the other half for who knows? At the competition I bought a program. She asked to see it 5 times, after handing it to her the 5th time I said she could hold it. After the last band preformed I went to the restroom, Sarah just happened to be headed in the same direction. Ginger came out of no where and cut us off! OK, I get sometime you need to use the bathroom right away, but not atleast say, something! Dad stopped to get gas, and while we were in the car she tells me where her hours is 39th and Cactus then precedes to tell me how to get to FIL's house from her's. Like I've never been to FIL's? I was mean could have said any number of things like - the house hasn't moved in 20 years, I've been there many times, but I said "yea, I lived there for 2 weeks" Ginger's says "Oh, when was that?", me "taking care of MOM.
It's hard for me to be nice to her, and it's hard for the kids to be around her. We are not ready to see hand holding by a widower of 6 months and the woman he is seeing and pushing on us.
Friday night she goes to the DV football game. It's windy and it's a little cool because of the wind. By no means was it freezing. She had to leave. So, I sat in the stands for over an hour alone.
Saturday, my FIL offered to drive to Flagstaff to watch DV band compete. He drove more than 1/2 way there then she told him he would drive. I did not feel comfortable with her driving, she was all over the place. We ate before going to NAU for the competition, she was so weird about paying FIL for her sandwich and only eating half, to save the other half for who knows? At the competition I bought a program. She asked to see it 5 times, after handing it to her the 5th time I said she could hold it. After the last band preformed I went to the restroom, Sarah just happened to be headed in the same direction. Ginger came out of no where and cut us off! OK, I get sometime you need to use the bathroom right away, but not atleast say, something! Dad stopped to get gas, and while we were in the car she tells me where her hours is 39th and Cactus then precedes to tell me how to get to FIL's house from her's. Like I've never been to FIL's? I was mean could have said any number of things like - the house hasn't moved in 20 years, I've been there many times, but I said "yea, I lived there for 2 weeks" Ginger's says "Oh, when was that?", me "taking care of MOM.
It's hard for me to be nice to her, and it's hard for the kids to be around her. We are not ready to see hand holding by a widower of 6 months and the woman he is seeing and pushing on us.
Frustrations-health
1. Back pain is worse.
2. Tried some injections make it worse.
3. MRI confirmed fractured sight is pressing on some nerves.
4. Workman's Comp is going to have to pay, but I will have to fight with them
5. Lost glasses
6. Can't seem to loss weight
7. Sleeping has been horrible.
8. urgency has gotten better, but I leak all the time. Had allergic reaction to medication
2. Tried some injections make it worse.
3. MRI confirmed fractured sight is pressing on some nerves.
4. Workman's Comp is going to have to pay, but I will have to fight with them
5. Lost glasses
6. Can't seem to loss weight
7. Sleeping has been horrible.
8. urgency has gotten better, but I leak all the time. Had allergic reaction to medication
Frustrations-house
I am feeling overwhelmed and I'm not sure I can even remember everything that's frustrating now.
1. We can't lock the dead bolt part of the carport door, well that's not completely true we can from the inside. But outside I can't get my key in or out of the lock. The bottom part the key gets sticky so it can be a challenge to get the key out.
2. Another messed up lock, the laundry room. I can never get it locked.
3. Refrigerator doesn't close without about 10 magnets and we have to have a picture in the back to collect water that drips down from the freezer.
4. Hall toilet leaks, I am tired of washing towels and rugs every day, Now Pat has a big garbage can in the bathroom to collect the water.
5. Master bath toilet doesn't always flush. Never know when it will, or will it won't. I can't plunge it well, I'm too short and it's painful for my back.
6. Red carpet needs cleaned, it is so dirty. I can't do it.
7. The bedroom carpets are so gross they need replaced.
8. Half of the electricity needs on overhaul. Things are plugged in from the ceiling and some don't work.
9. Kitchen fan/light, the light part works but not the fan, I really need the fan on when I have to cook, I get to hot.
10, Kitchen cabinets the bottom ones are going to fall to the floor soon.
1. We can't lock the dead bolt part of the carport door, well that's not completely true we can from the inside. But outside I can't get my key in or out of the lock. The bottom part the key gets sticky so it can be a challenge to get the key out.
2. Another messed up lock, the laundry room. I can never get it locked.
3. Refrigerator doesn't close without about 10 magnets and we have to have a picture in the back to collect water that drips down from the freezer.
4. Hall toilet leaks, I am tired of washing towels and rugs every day, Now Pat has a big garbage can in the bathroom to collect the water.
5. Master bath toilet doesn't always flush. Never know when it will, or will it won't. I can't plunge it well, I'm too short and it's painful for my back.
6. Red carpet needs cleaned, it is so dirty. I can't do it.
7. The bedroom carpets are so gross they need replaced.
8. Half of the electricity needs on overhaul. Things are plugged in from the ceiling and some don't work.
9. Kitchen fan/light, the light part works but not the fan, I really need the fan on when I have to cook, I get to hot.
10, Kitchen cabinets the bottom ones are going to fall to the floor soon.
Saturday, September 29, 2012
Back and Mouth
2 and a half weeks ago on a Wednesday, I had 4 injections in my back to help with my back pain. The first couple of days afterwards I felt fine. But I didn't do much, until Friday night chaperoning on the band bus to the football game.Caring around my stadium chair and pulling ice coolers filled with water bottles. That was very heavy. 2 of us ladies pulled one and even then it was very heavy. But my back felt fine. But on Saturday doing laundry and picking up the house a little, very little cause my back hurt so bad, like tearful pain. All day Sunday I didn't do much cause my back still hurt.Then it was better on Monday, but I didn't do anything. And that's just what happens if I cook, clean, walk to far, life. I am in major pain. Yeah so I don't think the shots really helped. Wednesday I get to have the injections again. I can't wait. Ha. I had to help Sarah make a cake today, I didn't even care what it looked like I just wanted to be done, my back hurt so, and still does and I've taken my narcotics.:(
I have never experienced a allergic reaction to any medication. When my mouth was itchy when I started using 4 new prescriptions there was a problem. I thought I had resolved it by using 2 of them at night so I wouldn't notice the itching. that seemed to work for about a week. Then my mouth just went crazy pain, even my teeth hurt. I didn't want to eat or drink cause it hurt to put stuff in my mouth, that's how bad it hurt. I stopped taking everything now 5 days later I still have some pain but it's getting better! I will start to reintroduce 1 at a time for 3-4 days to figure out which one it making my mouth so horrible. I forgot the mention the frist 3 days of the pain, I could not get my mouth to feel clean, it seemed like that's what decay would taste like. I don't know how I would know that? Maybe it's the book I'm ready for bible study, Lazarus Awaking and that's why I thought it seems like decay. That's gone now, thank goodness, cause it was so gross I didn't want to talk to anyone let alone kiss Pat, too gross. He said he didn't notice anything but I just wasn't comfortable kissing him.
I have never experienced a allergic reaction to any medication. When my mouth was itchy when I started using 4 new prescriptions there was a problem. I thought I had resolved it by using 2 of them at night so I wouldn't notice the itching. that seemed to work for about a week. Then my mouth just went crazy pain, even my teeth hurt. I didn't want to eat or drink cause it hurt to put stuff in my mouth, that's how bad it hurt. I stopped taking everything now 5 days later I still have some pain but it's getting better! I will start to reintroduce 1 at a time for 3-4 days to figure out which one it making my mouth so horrible. I forgot the mention the frist 3 days of the pain, I could not get my mouth to feel clean, it seemed like that's what decay would taste like. I don't know how I would know that? Maybe it's the book I'm ready for bible study, Lazarus Awaking and that's why I thought it seems like decay. That's gone now, thank goodness, cause it was so gross I didn't want to talk to anyone let alone kiss Pat, too gross. He said he didn't notice anything but I just wasn't comfortable kissing him.
Friday, September 28, 2012
Is it Fall yet?
I am so tired of sweating! Early mornings as in before 9 AM and evenings as is after 8 PM have been lovely for the last week. But all those long hours in between, not so lovely. It feels like we are stuck in Summer forever. Yesterday I did the grocery shopping for the next few weeks, I started sweating while I was shopping, and it took me hours and hours to get cool again. It felt like my cheeks were on fire, only they weren't. Taking a shower didn't even help, there's nothing more gross then taking a shower and still sweating. I've also have a sore and irritated mouth all week. The inside of my mouth tastes horrible too. So the relentless heat, plus not feeling wonderful is really putting me in a bad mood :(
One more month and maybe just maybe it will finally be Fall in Phoenix.
One more month and maybe just maybe it will finally be Fall in Phoenix.
Saturday, September 22, 2012
Bored
I am bored at home alone. I could clean the kitchen, vacuum or dust, but I am tired and sore. I could do my bible study, but I just don't feel like it. Pat and Joseph are at work. Sarah is with her boyfriend and his family. Rachel is with her friends. I am just feeling sad, because I have nothing fun to do. Not that bible study isn't fun. I just wished I had a friend to call and something to do somewhere other than my being in my messy house right now.
Thursday, September 20, 2012
Soup
Today I made chicken soup. I had a hard time cutting up the celery, because it reminded me of my MIL. She liked celery sticks, but they had to be cut very thin for her to enjoy them. And then as I was chopping, I thought of the last time I made chicken soup, I took some with me when I stayed with her. It was one of the last meals she ate. The last few weeks she didn't eat much at all. But the soup, she ate. It's been a long summer, and even though it's still freaking hot, I know my kids like the soup, and I had the ingredients and I am trying to stretch out our grocery money. I didn't realize how emotional it would make me.
All afternoon my house smelled amazing. But all of a sudden I smelled something new? When I went to check on the soup, all the broth had evaporated, and I have this stuck on blackness on the bottom of my pot.
I only had the chicken carcass and celery and onion in the pot, I opened up 3 cans of broth and dumped in the veggies I had chopped up and some rice. Hope it turns out...
It was very flavorless :( and the broth got completely soaked up with the rice. I think this soup was never meant to be.
All afternoon my house smelled amazing. But all of a sudden I smelled something new? When I went to check on the soup, all the broth had evaporated, and I have this stuck on blackness on the bottom of my pot.
I only had the chicken carcass and celery and onion in the pot, I opened up 3 cans of broth and dumped in the veggies I had chopped up and some rice. Hope it turns out...
It was very flavorless :( and the broth got completely soaked up with the rice. I think this soup was never meant to be.
Saturday, September 8, 2012
Moving On vs Changes
After a death who moves on? Or who accommodates the changes? Pat's Mom died on April 13. A month later his Dad is ordering meals for 2, I'm not sure of the timing but On Aug. 26th Pat's Dad took us out to dinner to tell us he is dating, Ginger a woman that Dad has known over 25 years. The past at least 3 years she drove a car around the Grand Canyon when Pat, his Dad and brother have hiked rim to rim. I know that Dad really had been alone for a lot of the time in the past years with Mom not feeling good.And I know that he's a grown man can decide when he is ready for a new life partner. Today was the first family party with Ginger there. I tried to be polite but it was so hard. My heart just felt so broken. And I had to divert my eyes from watching them. He had his hand draped on her knee. So there is familiarity enough to be comfortable touching her in front of all of us. If I was a betting person I would bet by the end of the year, 2012 they will be living together or getting married. I. do. not.like. changes.at.all. I'm going to need some serious therapy. And so will my girls.
Friday, August 17, 2012
First week of school and other ramblings
Sarah started her sophomore year. She has 3 tough honors classes. I'm worried about the amount of work it's going to be for her. She is a social girl and would really rather do anything than homework. Football season and therefore marching band season starts next week. The band has been practicing for the last 3 weeks.
Rachel started middle school! She quickly figured out having 6 different teachers is not so fun. Hopefully once she gets to understand what they all want from her, she'll do OK. She also started an Ariel class, she's had 2 classes. She loved the first week although she was quite sore for days after. This week she didn't want to go. I'm not sure if it was just a it's that time of the month thing, or nerves. But she went she said it felt like her arms feel out of her sockets. But was quite excited about class afterwards.
I haven't been feeling all that wonderful again lately, headaches, stomach issues, itchy ears. Really just plan gross. I had blood work done yesterday and my numbers looked fine, PA will go over them with me on Thursday. I saw my Neurologist yesterday too he was really worried about me. He is sending me to a urologist, to see a pain clinic doctor and to have a back MRI. I don't have the MRI scheduled yet, but I do have the other 3 appointments next week. I hate not feeling well, and I hate all the testing, and all the doctor visits and the heat! I really hate the heat most of all! If it wasn't so freaking hot outside maybe I wouldn't mind the rest! The Neurologist talked to my PA yesterday because he was quite concerned about me. The PA office called to check up on me today, and was told to go to the ER if I felt worse this weekend. I hope it doesn't come to that!
Rachel started middle school! She quickly figured out having 6 different teachers is not so fun. Hopefully once she gets to understand what they all want from her, she'll do OK. She also started an Ariel class, she's had 2 classes. She loved the first week although she was quite sore for days after. This week she didn't want to go. I'm not sure if it was just a it's that time of the month thing, or nerves. But she went she said it felt like her arms feel out of her sockets. But was quite excited about class afterwards.
I haven't been feeling all that wonderful again lately, headaches, stomach issues, itchy ears. Really just plan gross. I had blood work done yesterday and my numbers looked fine, PA will go over them with me on Thursday. I saw my Neurologist yesterday too he was really worried about me. He is sending me to a urologist, to see a pain clinic doctor and to have a back MRI. I don't have the MRI scheduled yet, but I do have the other 3 appointments next week. I hate not feeling well, and I hate all the testing, and all the doctor visits and the heat! I really hate the heat most of all! If it wasn't so freaking hot outside maybe I wouldn't mind the rest! The Neurologist talked to my PA yesterday because he was quite concerned about me. The PA office called to check up on me today, and was told to go to the ER if I felt worse this weekend. I hope it doesn't come to that!
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