Angry

I am so angry. Sarah's girl scout leader is a jerk. I have know this for a long time, like since Sarah was in 1st grade, but I thought she changed. In first grade Sarah and the leader's daughter were friends. For some reason near the end of the school year, the daughter was not allowed to talk/play with Sarah. This year, they are in the same classroom, and are friends once again and even though I didn't want Sarah in this scout troop (really not at all, because of this mother and I thought it would be too much for Sarah with all her other activities). On Sunday the leader calls my house looking for us, because she thinks we are supposed to be selling girl scout cookies when we are not supposed to be. Later when we are were we are supposed to be at the time, we were supposed to work, she says, "I just couldn't figure out who was suppose to work then, so she figured it must have been us." What? Tonight Joseph's scouts gets canceled, so I have him walk into Sunrise to get Sarah. We no sooner get home and the leader comes knocking on our door. The money Sarah turned in for cookies isn't right. Pat kept the cash he collected from what he sold at Fry's, and I wrote a check for it and our cookies. And I did not have family write there driver's license number on their checks. (all checks need a driver license, I was so angry I put mine on the ones missing the number, really like that's going to guarantee funds) The leader tells me, that as a parent we can not write a check covering other orders. Counsel wants cash. We can not mix money. How is it mixed, if the amount the girl owes is paid in full? I totally lost it with her, I want to hear this from counsel. I do not feel good, and this is stupity. The asst. leader just recently left the troop because $700 disappeared from the money the girls raised with mistletoe. I was already going to have Sarah look into this other troop that meets Friday afternoons, twice a month, and combines Girl Scouts and Brownies, so Rachel could go too. The leader is getting remarried soon, maybe she thought the girls should help pay for her wedding?

Not well, again :(

I saw my doctor this morning. She says, I have a sinus infection. The cold I had was getting better, but yesterday I was so stuffy and had a headache all day. I had to take a nap yesterday, and I fell asleep last night before 9:30, and I slept all night, I did not feel rested this morning. My nose is just dripping and my ears are full of fluid. I'll be taking another nap today. She also gave me a sleep aid to use when I have trouble sleeping. I'm hoping I can get well, then get a good sleeping pattern and stay well, already.

76 years ago today

My Mom was born. Pat said he didn't feel good this morning, (but of course was fine enough to go to work), so just the girls and I went to church. Then we went to one of my Mom's favorite places to eat afterwards to celerate the date of her birth. Long John Silvers. Even though Rachel doesn't rememeber Me Me, (she was only 6 months old when she died), I shared some stories with the girls, and we had a nice lunch.

Made it home, but couldn't get in the house!

Yesterday and today, Sarah had to sell Girl Scout cookies. Today I had to sell with her. Of course it was the same time as I needed to be available to pick Joseph up from his camping trip 4 PM. I asked the asst. scout master yesterday if she would drop Joseph off to me at Fry's. He asks her to just take him home, which would have been fine, except, he didn't take a house key with him camping, and she didn't wait to make sure he got in the house OK. If I was dropping a boy off at home, I would make sure I make sure he got in the house. Especially if no one was home! She stops by Fry's on her way home anyway, because she needed something, and to tell me they were back. And she probably talked to me for 15 minutes. Our neighbor was at Fry's shopping a little later and I asked her to take Rachel home (this is about 6:30), since Joseph is home now, and she was really getting bored. She comes back with Rachel, I'm thinking Joseph didn't hear Rachel knock at the door, because I had called him like 6 times, I figured he was down in my room watching TV, (and man was I getting mad at him) and never heard the phone or the knock at the door. Nope he was relaxing on his sleeping bag under the carport, waiting for us to come home. I gave the neighbor the key and she took Rachel back home. I felt bad just assuming he was in front of the TV, I just didn't think he would be outside, not able to get in. If I was locked out, I think I would have used a neighbor's phone to call someone or at the very least ride by bike to Fry's to get a key to get in the house. (his bike was out front) He must have been tired to not have thought of anything other than rolling out the sleeping bag for a nap!

Scouting adventure

Today, Joseph left for an over night camping trip in Flagstaff. Needless to so, we had to go shopping last night for warm clothes, gloves, ect. Thank goodness, we got our tax refund so we could buy the stuff he needed. Sarah spent the night last night at a friend's house. I wake up way to early for a Saturday morning, and wake Rachel too, because Pat had to go to work this morning. Joseph, who was supposed to set his alarm failed to set it. I was so mad at him, if I spend money for him to go on this camping trip and the troop leaves without him, he's going to owe us big for a long time. He hurries and gets himself ready, we get to the meeting spot on time, just the boy who lives at the house we met at is there, the scout master did not print off the permission slips, and is not there yet. Rachel and I had to wait for him. 2 more boys show up, we wait another 15 minutes, the asst. scout master leaves and drives to the scout master's house, (after trying to call his house and cell) he never comes to the door, but his mother (he still lives at home) gives the asst. the permission slips. 4 boys went to Flagstaff with 2 women overnight. Please pray for their safety and that they stay warm. The are going to the observatory tonight and doing some cave thing or something tomorrow before driving home. Yesterday's high was 32 in Flagstaff, it's going to be cold for them overnight.

Sleep-Flyer-Orange

I can't take it any more. Sleepless nights, every night is just NOT fun. I guess it's know wonder I can't seem to get well. The sleeping pills that I bought do nothing for me. I've even tried doubling the dose 2 nights in a row. My legs are freaking out when I am trying to sleep, so maybe, I have restless leg syndrome. I called my primary care doctor today, to schedule an appointment. I want fixed! The principal got to the bottom of the orange throwing at Rachel kid. A girl walking home with them yesterday threw an orange first, but missed her target. (not one of my girls), so that's when the boy who thought he was being targeted threw the orange that hit Rachel. Joseph was so upset that someone would hurt his little sister, he wanted to go beat the kid up. I of course wouldn't let him, because that's really the wrong way to handle the problem, but on the other hand I was proud that he was willing to stick up for his sister. After I "graduated" from DVU last night, I emailed the principal about the fundraiser flyers we needed done already. She emailed me back OK at 5:30 this morning. I was at school all morning, doing this and that, (mostly coping) so I was at school when Rachel and Sarah got called to the office about the orange throwing. One of the secretaries said, "you know you have good kids, when they have to ask where the principals office is". Both my girls didn't have a clue where it is, they've never been sent to the office.

Frustating Day

I left today wide open so I could get PTO flyers copied and out for our Spring fundraiser that starts on Monday. (Gold Canyon Candles) The principal needs to approve all flyers that get sent home. The PTO secretary gave them to her for approval. We had wanted to put in pictures of what we are planning on doing with the profit of our fundraiser. We do not have district approval yet to buy the things we want, so we were told we couldn't do that. I went to school today, thinking, I'm just going to be copying all day. Nope. I go and make up new flyers that don't include pictures or references of what we are planning on buying. So, at this point it should have been easy to get them approved and copied, right? Nope, not if the principal is not on campus. She came in sometime this afternoon, but because there were several issues she needed to take care of, she didn't get to look at the flyers yet. I'm really hoping that she'll get to it in the morning. UGH! The girls come home from school today, with Rachel crying and Sarah explaining that a boy threw an orange at Rachel on the way home from school, hitting her left cheek. This same boy smashed Sarah's lunch one day last week. I called the school to tell them what happened. I hope this child does not get away with hitting Rachel.

Counseling

This afternoon, Rachel met with a counselor for the first time. Although she's getting better, going to bed, school, dance, play at friend's houses, she still has a lot of fear that something is going to happen to me, therefore doesn't want to be apart from me. She's OK sometimes, but not always. The counselor gave her some assignments to do, and she'll go back next week, to see how she's doing on her assignments. Rachel has fear about something happening to other people too. Like last week she dreamt that Pat died. She was upset about it, and talked about her dream a lot, but in no way did she freak out like if I left the house or she went to bed or something. I'm praying counseling will help her see that she's not alone with her fears and that everyone has them and its normal, and that she learns how to handle them. I "need" her to get better, or I'm going to "go" insane.

Scrapbooking

I haven't had time, or felt well enough to work work on my scrapbooking for a long time. Plus it is so un-motivating to crop alone. Tonight, I got out some supplies and did 4 pages, while Joseph was at scouts. The pictures are from Girly Girlz, a Christmas gift to the girls from their great Aunt. I have tons of pictures I want to work on, the first Friday of every month starting in March, I hope to host a scrapbooking group, and someone shows up, so I don't have to crop alone.

Sarah's shots

Rachel's shots

a fun day

Another longish day, because...

I didn't sleep well again last night, so it took many hours to get 3 loads of laundry done today. I had a few errands to do today, I finally left the house just before 2, drove to Arrowhead to pick up Rachel's pictures first. I have to park a half mile away, walk into JC Penny's and the portrait studio is closed, there's a sign that says "at lunch, back at 3 pm) Well, since I drove all the way to Arrowhead, walked a half mile into the store, I wasn't leaving without my pictures, but I couldn't wait until 3 to get them. I helped myself. A customer came in, while I was looking for them, asked if I worked there, I said no, but asked her what she needed, she just had some questions that I could answer. I didn't feel as bad about taking the "extra sheets" they always put in the envelope then. Left without getting caught, I just think it's silly that they would take an hour lunch and not have someone in the studio during that time. Picked up Sarah's glasses, and she's had them for almost 3 hours and hasn't lost them yet! That's like a record for her. Stopped by the grocery store and picked up a few things including sleeping pills, I'm going to take tonight, and just pray that not only will they help me fall and stay asleep all night, but also not mess up my blood levels. Sarah's scout meeting got canceled tonight, but she brought home the leader's daughter's homework (they are in the same class, and Sarah's friend was not at school today), so I took Sarah to give it to her, and we picked up some more girl scout cookies. Pat's a work darn it, or I'd be done with all this driving around. Joseph still has scouts, and if he ever finishes getting ready, we'll be off.

Disappointing

Pat was off today and so were the kids. We had planned on a picnic lunch,and play at the park at 19th and Larkspur. I hadn't planned on rain though. Pat had to close last night, so lunch at the park would have been fun. The neighbor girl spent the night last night, so the girls played with her all morning, then Sarah's friend came over to work on a school project with her. I ended up taking Joseph shopping for jeans (since our plans were rained out). We went to Mervyn's and there wasn't one pair in the right size. We came home to get some shoes he wanted to return at Kohl's, found jeans there. But it took a long, long time. We had thought about taking the kids to do indoor mini golf, but there wasn't enough time before dance classes. I suggested we go out to eat an early dinner or really late lunch. We went to Valle Luna. I was disappointed. The rice was crunchy, the chimi wasn't all that good, the waitress forgot to bring the ranch dressing Rachel asked for (of course Rachel was not at all happy, so neither were any of us then)

Saturdays

For some of my growing up years, I would have to spend helping my Mom clean the house on Saturdays. I really hated it, not so much the cleaning, but that she would "rest" in between jobs and it would take all day long to clean the house. I hated that, I wanted to spend time with friends or do other things. Today, as I was home all alone, while Pat was at work, Joseph at a rifle range with his scout troop, and the girls at a friend's house. It wasn't all that much fun, cleaning/doing laundry by myself. But it was nice to have clean floors for a few hours with no one walking/spilling stuff on them. I left a few chores for them to do, like unloading the dishwasher and putting away their own laundry. I kinda blew it by not having Sarah to put away her laundry, after she asked to spend the night with her friend, I guess I'll have to out hers away. I had another sleepless night last night, so I'm really tired, and just to prove that I'm insane I told Rachel she could have a friend spend the night. She wanted to desperately last night. She called 2 friends, but it was getting late when she called, so they are both spending the night tonight. The stupid cold I have is still hanging on. Joseph didn't go to school yesterday, he slept from 8 am-2 pm said when I made him get up he felt a whole lot better. He hasn't complained of feeling dizzy, since yesterday morning. But I think he also knew if he was dizzy I wouldn't have let him go to the rifle range, so he was healed with his 5 hour nap yesterday.

Health Updates

Joseph seems not to be as dizzy as before his nap. Of course now, he's not all that tired to go to bed tonight, so who knows how he'll feel in the morning. I thought I was getting better, just my chest tight earlier. Until I go to my DVU class tonight and I start coughing and couldn't stop. It was very embarrassing and a very long hour and a half. I'm still coughing at home too, yuck, I hope I can sleep tonight. My sister talked with my brother tonight, he got the pathology report back he said his spleen was enlarged due to Hairy cell leukemia. He sees his blood doctor soon and will find out what treatment plan he will have, please keep him and his family in your prayers.

Bad Mother

Sarah calls me at 8:45, saying she's forgotten her math and language arts book. After my bad night's sleep I'm asleep so I didn't hear the phone. Joseph's school nurse calls at 10:30, on my cell phone I don't hear that either. My sister calls at 11:20, I don't hear that either. At 11:45 she shows up at my house, in my room. I freak out. I think. " Has someone died?" Really she just rescued Joseph from school and brought him home. He's dizzy and doesn't feel good. He was complaining of getting a cold a few days ago and he took 4 ibuprofen this morning before school, so I'm hoping the combo of those 2 things is what's wrong with him. I had him take his contacts out, and lay down, I'll see how he feels after a nap. I'm not going to take Sarah her books, she needs to learn to take them herself, I've taken her a few things recently, but I think if I keep rescuing her by bringing in stuff she's forgotten she's not going to learn anything. Maybe having 2 late assignments will help her to remember her stuff.

Long Day

Yesterday was both wonderful and long! The 5th grade field trip went well, but it was kinda strange that our group's tour guide thought I was the chaperone in charge of the whole group. I just had a few problems with a few of the boys, wondering away from the group, not sitting down, and when we were in the theater 2 boys were rocking on the auditorium seats (I guess they thought they were at Harkins or something). It was kinda strange being with a group of kids that I really didn't know any of their names. I call Pat from the very loud bus on the way back and ask him to meet me at Jack in the Box for lunch, because were not going to have much time to eat, because Rachel wants me to come to her class party, which I find out that morning it starts at 1:30. I get off the bus, on my feet, (thank goodness) at 1:15. Meet Pat, who isn't there yet, order lunch, Pat shows up, we spent 15 minutes together, while I eat really fast, drive back to Sunrise and I am only 15 minutes late for the party. But when I walk in the office door, the secretary asks me, did Mr. T see me? Followed by Mrs. S wanted to know if I went home after the field trip because she needed something. I wasn't gone that long people! Rachel's party had just gotten started when I got there, and she had a fun party. After school, Rachel's friend came home with me, to work on homework with Rachel. They are both in the same reading group, and they've had these large packets each week to do for homework. I asked their reading teacher about this today, because it really seems like way to much work for 1st grade. Come to find out they are supposed to be working on the packet in class and finishing it at home, not doing the whole thing at home. She said she's been wondering why some of the kids have been staring into space, when they are supposed to be working on their packets. I guess she just didn't think about asking them why! This is her first year teaching, and the kids have been going to reading groups just for a few weeks now. Homework gets done, I get the roast in the oven, check Joseph's grades online, ask him about a few things, scan his science packet that I have to sign that if he looses this assignment he won't get another copy and the thing is worth 500 points. I thought it best to copy it, so he will have a back up. While I'm scanning pat shows up and asks me to scan and print something for him, then Joseph shows up with a scout thing he needs scanned and copied too. I'm thinking they both need to learn how to use the scanner. We had a lovely dinner, of roast pork, mashed potatoes, stuffing, and green beans. I didn't have time to make a fun dessert, so we did the next best thing, we opened up our Valentine candy and dug in! While we were enjoying our candy, the sky looked really strange something through the windows. We run outside and she the most wonderful full rainbow. We get a couple of pictures before it starts pouring really hard. After the girls go to bed, Pat and I watch a little TV with Joseph, before we retire to our room :) I try to fall asleep, but I'm having restless leg problems and can't go to sleep. I take some Tylenol which doesn't help, come out to the living room and read, which has worked all week long putting me to sleep, but not last night. I finish the book, it's taken me days to read, but from my pelvis down, I am not relaxed yet. I take another one of my back pain medicines which relaxes me. I finally sleep, but it's 5 AM now, and my alarm went off at 7. I'm pretty tired, if I ever get these girls ready for school, I'm going back to bed.

Happy Valentine's Day!

I woke up this morning, very tired, but as I stumbled out to the kitchen, I found a gorgeous vase of red roses for me :) From my valentine! I left the kids' treats on the counter last night and I'm very proud of them they've gone over to look at them but didn't open them to try to eat some candy for breakfast.

Memory

Forget that I said I had a good memory in the last post. I really don't. I asked Pat to take me to lunch tomorrow for Valentine's Day because he's off. We were going to go at 12, because he has an eye appointment at 2. Thank goodness for my friend, who called to talk to me about the 5th grade field trip tomorrow. I had totally forgotten about it. I'm sure I would have remembered this at some point though. I don't have a 5th grader but we are short on trained volunteers, so said I would go to help out so they didn't have to cancel the trip. But even if I didn't have to chaperone tomorrow, it is the PTO president's lunch tomorrow, so I wouldn't have been able to go to lunch with my husband anyway. Hopefully we'll be back from the Halle Heart Center by 1 and Pat and I can grab something quick before his appointment. I made homemade candy for Valentine's Day, and as I was setting the gift plates up for Pat and the kids, it dawned on me I didn't make or buy a card for Pat. I just really don't feel all that creative right now, I'll have to try to put something together tomorrow, UGH :( I am so mad at myself UGH, UGH, UGH