My Mother's Day gift

A few months ago, the glass top of my stove cracked and developed 2 holes. This left me 2 burners to cook on, and one of the burners has never really worked well. (I had it looked at and the repair guy said "it was my pan and not the stove", I tried to convince the guy, that my pan works perfectly fine on the other burners, he wouldn't budge with his assessment so I never really used the burner unless I really had to) I've had to for months and it drives me crazy. Therefore, I asked P if for Mother's Day I could have the glass top replaced. On Monday, the repair person came out to replace it, but he tells P that it would be cheaper to replace the whole range. So, P decides to do that, but he still had to pay the service fee of $139 to the repair guy, who did nothing. The new range came today. It is very nice, and has 5 burners one for keeping something warm. The oven is a regular one and conventional. I have never used a conventional oven, so I'll have to learn how to do that. I made homemade pizza for dinner, which turned out wonderfully, and the kids thought the new oven was great, I just think I made good dough!

A blessing!

Yesterday I got an email at school that said I was hired for the "extended school year" program for special ed students. I applied in February. 4 weeks of 4 hour days 4 days a week, June 14th to July 15th. What a great blessing! I still have no clue what I'll be doing next school year, we're still praying for a part-time job to open.

Is it depression or illness? and I hate Saturdays

The last 2 nights I have gone to bed by 8 PM if not earlier. I sleep though the nights with just the normal wakings during the nights. Thursday all the Para professionals met with the school principal. The bottom 2 paras will not have a job next year, I would really like a part time position at the campus, that's what I will be looking for, right now, please pray for me that the job God has in store fore me I will be ready to do it. I am working 3 days in June as the school secretary.That is a nice blessing. Can't what to see what God has in store for us,

Much more of an expensive day

On the way to church on Sunday the car made a horrible rumbling sound, then staled, we were at a traffic light, J was driving. First attempt did not start the car, I suggest he give it a little gas, knowing it will either start the car or flood the engine, but figured it wouldn't hurt to try since we were not going anywhere anyway. He started, but it was rumbling a little bit still, I was to nervous to go to church, and then it not start afterward. He turned us around for home. When P got home from work we dropped it off at the car shop. I can't even tell you what was wrong and I talked to the mechanic. The one thing I did understand him telling me was the back brakes were 90% shot. Grand total of this adventure went on my credit card because it was more than my take home pay for a month. The worst thing is I think the car is still rumbling, well maybe the engine is just loud. I think I'll just turn up the radio so I don't hear it.

expensive day

On Wednesday P's car was towed from where he had it parked while he was at work. P has been parking in the bank that is in the same parking lot as his work location, for months. When he got off work he went into the bank to find out what happened. They resurfaced their parking lot, and had the cars that were parked in the lot were towed. He was given the information to where he could pick the car up. When he called the guy who owns the towing place says he has to leave for a doctor's appointment, so P can not pick up the car until Thursday. What? P calls him on Thursday and says it will be after 3 when we can come to get the car, since I work till 3. He agrees to come back between 5-6 PM to get let us have the car and only charge us an extra $20. The grand total of the towing was $170. The whole thing was just so ridiculous. I had a hard time sleeping on Wednesday night. I took my sleeping pill, then 4 Tylenol, and at midnight when I still was not asleep, I took some night time cough medicine. I finally fell asleep around 1 AM on the couch. Not great sleep I had, and thank goodness J turned on the radio at 6:45, which woke me completely up. (P had woke me up, with his noise and lights when he was getting ready to go to work, but after he left at 6, I fell back to sleep, hard enough not to hear J getting ready for school.) I did fine all day yesterday at work, but as soon as I got home I was exhausted. Driving home after picking up P's car, I fell asleep for a second and my car swerved and when up a curb. Thank goodness it was a curb and not worse and I am fine, but there's a big chunk out of the metal thingy that covers the wheel and the tire needed to be replaced. I drove the rest of the way home with a flat tire. I was very close to home when it happened. I asked J to start to put the spare tire on, I thought it would be a good idea for him to do that and I figured he would only get as far as getting the spare out of the trunk before P got home anyway. He and S were moving the car father in the driveway, when I hear a loud crash. Everybody and everything is fine, the cabinet in family room fell over. Just use you imagination to what happened. S was in the drivers seat. P dropped off my car to Firestone last night, I fell asleep on the couch before 8, and at 8:30 I woke up to banging and went to bed. I sleep completely through the night until I woke up for the first time briefly at 5 AM. I really was tired.

Depressing

That's what I would call the professional in service I attended this afternoon. I hate that Arizona does not value our children's education. Education budget cuts, there's got to be a better way to reduce the state budget. Yes, working for a school district I see a lot of waste, but teachers being RIDed, which seems to me like will only increase classroom sizes and stress out remaining teachers, classified employees that will loss their jobs, leaving no office and a few supporting staff members to assist stressed out teachers. It's going to be tough to make it though the last 5 remaining weeks of school not knowing if you will be working come August, and if your children are going to be in classrooms with more than 35 students and one stressed out teacher. Home schooling would not be an option at this point.

Almost Friday!!!

It has been a long work week. AIMS testing week. R will test tomorrow and have 4th grade science on Monday, I'm ready for the days to go back to normal. Also steroids make you so thirsty, I feel like I could swim in my own body. And I have been needing to eat lots, too, my metabolism is way up, if I don't eat enough I'm shaky, it's a very weird feeling. I'm praying that not only am I having reactions to the medications, they are helping my body heal. Last night was the first night I remember dreaming in a long time, so I must be getting better, a sign right?

Happy Birthday to my Man!!!

P spent his day at work :( When he got home he wanted to open his presents from us before we met his parents for dinner. Dinner out was nice, but it's very hard to hear well in loud restaurants. He and J are waiting to play on the computers, I'll post some or a picture or two later. Also news worthy the antibiotics, steroids and inhaler are doing there jobs, I have felt better today. Not 100% yet, but a big improvement. YEAH!

Yeah it's Saturday!

I made it through the week, but everyday was a major battle. I was tired all day, everyday. Last night I started a coughing fit that lasted forever. The cough medicine I got for my doctor didn't work all that well, I first thought of just calling on Monday for another appointment. This morning after I didn't sleep well again (due to coughing), I went to The Little Clinic inside the Fry's P works, after dropping J off at school. (His ROTC unit is working at PIR today.) I was very impressed with the nurse practitioner, she called the doctor who is on call to make sure she didn't miss anything and was giving me the correct prescriptions. Slowly I am getting some laundry done, and I have dinner in the oven. The girls are wasting this perfectly beautiful day inside watching TV. I'd like to waste it taking a nap! I'll have to be up late tonight, it might be 11 or later before J is back and needs a ride home, UGH.

Doctor and Memorial

Yesterday when I still wasn't feeling very well, I made a doctor's appointment, and amazingly enough I got an appointment for yesterday afternoon. She gave me a prescription for the cough I can't seem to shake and something for what she thinks is wrong with my stomach (she thinks it's my ulcer, but we'll see), I had to have blood drawn and do a stool sample. Yuck was that gross this morning. My insurance wouldn't cover the medicine for my ulcer, the pharmacy and doctor's office are trying to work that out, while I wait for the results of the tests. My Uncle Penner died in January, he moved to Oregon 7 years ago, his memorial was today, he was cremated and his ashes are being buried at the Veteran's Cemetery in Phoenix, he was the last living sibling of my Mom's, there were 8 siblings/half-siblings spanning 21 years, my Mom was the baby of the family. His daughter Judy and his granddaughter Dina flew out from PA and I got to see a lot of cousins today. It was a lovely day, high of about 75, a little windy. I some how still manged to get a little sunburn.

Happy Easter!

We celebrated Easter yesterday, when P got off of work. First we decorated cookies, then colored eggs, and ate dinner (ham, cheesy potatoes, corn on the cob) then after a brief pause because my stomach hurt beyond normal, we let the kids have their Easter baskets. We were going to have strawberry shortcake, but I just couldn't eat anything, and the kids were happy with all the candy they got. This morning, we (the kids and I slept in and went to church at 11). P had to work at 7 this morning. My stomach still didn't feel good, but I made it through church, although I didn't eat anything before we left. After church I took the kids out for lunch, I ate some, but I was very nervous eating. I made it home in time to use the bathroom, luckily I wasn't vomiting too like last night. UGH. Resting and relaxing is in store for the rest of the day.

Her Glasses!

Happy Birthday to my first born!

17 years ago. I remember the day of his birth so vividly, it seems impossible that it was so long ago. Happy Birthday J! I love you!

How can it be?

It seems like the week has barely started but yet it's late on Friday night. Interesting today at lunch there was a Mom with 3 children, the Mom commented that she couldn't wait for this week to be over. My first thought was how sad. My second thought was teachers and staff don't want it to end! Really the Mom has to deal with the little darlings 3 weeks during the school year some other odds and ends days, weekends and summer break, teachers get to deal with them the rest of the time. Today R and a friend and I went to see The Diary of a Wimpy Kid. It was cute. Had lunch then picked S up to go to Great Skate. S was meting a few friends there. Although R doesn't really skate she really wanted to go, it was touch in go to see if we were going to stay. She made it and had a good time.

Glasses and Movies

Took R to the eye doctor this morning. She finally needs glasses. She is very excited about that fact. Right now for school and the computer. Took the girls to see Dear John this afternoon. Not much like the book at all, I was disappointed in it, the girls sat through the whole movie but it's not one they'll want to watch again. Hopefully on Wednesday we'll all be able to see Alice in Wonderland. Tomorrow's Spring Break adventure is Chuck E Cheese, even though the kids are getting older they want to go play :)

where I've been the last few days

Just a few shots of the pictures of the beautiful Young Life's Lost Canyon retreat camp in Williams.

Nervous and Excited

The week went by fast, thank goodness. But golly it's already Friday and I'm leaving in an hour for the retreat. The newspaper said the high was supposed to be 50. It rained yesterday, so I doubt any of the snow from last weekend is still hanging around. I think I could deal with the cold if surrounding area was pretty. I think there's going to be mud! I have not left any directions for my husband and children. I did go over things with all of them. How disappointed do you think am I going to be on Sunday when I get home? I feel totally out of my comfort zone both the retreat and not leaving lists.

Better Week

Thank goodness! I don't think I could handle stress like the stress from the week before 2 weeks in a row. J went to his first Military Ball last night. His freshman year he didn't want to go, and last year he had a fever, so he missed it. He said he had a good time. I'll have to get him to tell me more about it when he's not so tired. He got home about midnight last night and was up by 6:30 showering to go to a Boy Scout meeting this morning. He is currently resting/napping in front of the TV, hopefully later I'll get to hear about the Ball. The girls and I went to bingo night at Sunrise. S was the only one who won a prize and very sweetly gave it to R when we got home. J is thinking about working at scout camp this summer. The director he had problems with last year will not be there again this year. The interviews are next Saturday. This week will be a short week work wise for me. I am taking Friday off and hopefully will be able to see S in her Middle School's talent show. I've asked her every day what time it will be and looked on the school's web page and still I don't know when it is. Hopefully P will go on Friday night and video tape it. I'm leaving early Friday afternoon to attend my church's woman's retreat in Williams. I can't wait, and the timing just seems perfect year with the next week Spring Break, a Spirit filled weekend, followed by a relaxing week of no work. No plans for Spring Break, I'm hoping we can do a few little things as a family on whatever days P has off, we'll see what we can afford and when he's off. If nothing else we'll go to see a few movies.

Stressful week

That was my week in a nut shell. I have had stomach issues all week because of it (still do), and then last night I had terrible leg cramps all night. I just couldn't go to work today. P is bringing me home bananas so hopefully at least the leg cramps will stop soon.

Bad headache=very bad mood

That was me yesterday. Every little thing made me mad. The kids didn't clean up after themselves all day, until I blew my top. P wanting to "help" me make dinner, he stood in the kitchen waiting to be told what to do. I hate that. I lost it with him too. He took the car and left for a long time. Which of course made me even madder. The kids and I had to get up to be at church at 8:30, P who had to go to work at 11 AM, stayed in bed. That behavior makes me even more angry. I guess it's no wonder my stomach has hurt something terrible all afternoon and evening.

Dear John

I think read this before, and I thought I had the book here somewhere, where I don't know. But it's the book I recommended for my book club which meets in a few weeks. I finally went out today and bought the paperback version of the book. I read a little this afternoon confirming I've read it before. R wants to read it. I think I'll let her and we can have our own discussion on the book. Do you think this is a bad idea? She's only 10.

Dance competion

My niece in PA will be competing on Sat. with her dance troop in Pittsburgh. Hopefully I'll remember to go to the site on Sat. about 7:30 PM to watch. The song is Fire Burning www.breakthefloor.com/jump/ #144

Field trip

I got to go on the 3rd grade field trip today. 2 long hours keeping track of kids as they ran, OK moved quickly from one display to another. P took R on this field trip last year and they had a lovely time. This weekend they are having a free family day, although panning for gold is $2. I will not be taking the kids. Rocks and minerals are fine to wear, but to study them or collect them other in jewelery is a bit boring for me. I brought home 3 little rocks for R, who loves rocks. J asked were his amber was? Sorry big guy I didn't remember (I only kinda remember having a conversation with him about this) nor did I take any money. R's rocks were free.

I so wish it was bedtime already!

I did not sleep well last night. I'm sure do to the fact that being home all day, (except to go to the eye doctor) and not doing much, did not wear me out. I was feeling OK, at school today. But after I had been sitting still for 30 minutes, waiting for J to finish his PT, I laid my head back on the wall and took a little nap. Not completely refreshing. But not horrible either. I'm waiting on the 4th load of laundry in the dryer to finish and J to get home from scouts, so I can go to sleep. I'm glad P bought me a big box of chocolates for Valentine's Day, but I'm sorry I opened it! Dinner wasn't so great tonight, therefore the candy tasted even better, after 5 pieces I put the box away, I could had eaten at least 5 more.

Valentine

Since P worked until 7:30 on Valentine's Day we celebrated with the kids dinner on Saturday. They played poker with their candy after dinner. It was so cute. The girls who don't play poker got out the dictionaries to help them know what hand is higher, very smart. Last night P and I went for a long walk, then got some ice cream on the way home. Today he's off at 4:30, so we may go to a early movie. J spent the afternoon, early evening with his oldest cousin yesterday, they went to see a movie then hung out at Castles and Coasters played a round of golf, did the bumper boats, and Indy cars. What a fun date they had!

Headaches of all shapes and sizes

The biggest physically one,was on Sunday. After church I just vegged in front of the T.V. for hours watching movies in the dark with ice packs. The week was long and stressful at school and home and trying to keep up with everything and everybody really dragged me down. I am hoping for a nice relaxing 3 day weekend. Nothing is to planned, p works during the day tomorrow, then 11-7:30 on Sunday, and 8-4:30 on Monday. I'm very thankful he has a good job, but I can't help to wish his was off more when we are.

Birthdays and been busy

Both girls are a year older! A teenager and one who hit double digits for the first time. We celebrated their birthdays and their cousin's birthday, who's birthday is 3 days before S's. with family last Saturday. Then P and I took S and a few friends to hang out at a mall. The girls didn't want us hanging around so we ate and did some walking around. The only things we bought was a birthday gift for one of R's friends and dice for school. That wasn't so fun! Nothing for me! The week whizzed by, all the regular stuff during the week (dance and scouts) and R had a birthday party Tuesday night at Pump it Up, and J had 2 physical therapy sessions. Wed. was no school, I didn't do a whole lot, took my sister to PT, did some laundry, and did the drop off, pick up for dance and S's youth group. Last night R had her party at a hotel nearby with an indoor pool. 3 of her friends were sick, R was beyond upset and 2 other girls couldn't come either. I thought it was going to be just her and me at the hotel. A last minute invitee called and said she could come, and R asked S to come. P and J got dinner for us and stayed while we all ate together by the pool but we took the cake back up to the room for later. The 3 girls got along very nicely. The were all sound asleep by 1 AM. We got up at 8:30, had a yummy breakfast at the hotel, then the girls played in the pool for an hour and a half before check out. R's party was her birthday present, and I think it's the best kind of gift, memories and not stuff. And even though it was very disappointing to her that more friends couldn't come, she'd like to do the same thing next year. We'll see, if she's still talking about it in 11 months.

Freaking out

J had his appointment with the knee doctor today. He has to see him again in one month, during that time we can discuss the ACL surgery. I know J really wants to have it and the sooner the better. I think it would be best to wait until the beginning of July after scout camp and 6 weeks before school starts. This will be J's last year as a "boy" at camp, I think he would miss not going. I also think it would be easier for me to take him to PT 3 days a week, when I'm not working, and he's not in school. For the first 4 weeks after surgery he has to wear a knee brace that will make it hard to climb the bus steps followed by 2 weeks of crutches. The doctor thinks he could just wait and see if anything happens before surgery, but because J is planning on an Air Force career that is not an option. J will have to quit his job at Fry's, the doctor would not give a no restriction release, which Fry's wants. The doctor wants J to wear a brace all the time to stabilize his knee now too. This visit took 2 hours and $61 plus $11 for pizza for dinner. I left the girls home alone. As J and I were headed down the street in our neighborhood, we see a large puff of smoke, we couldn't tell were it was coming from fast enough for me. It was not our house and the girls are safe. Not sure how the fire started, the police department was 2 houses down dealing with an 18 year old threatening his parents with a knife, when one of the officers looked over and noticed the attic was on fire. Good timing? I hope so, the fire department had the fire out pretty fast.

Car

I drove my husband's car all day, which is amazing thing because he doesn't let me drive his car. As in I could count on one hand how many times I've driven it in all the years we've had it. But today he had no choice but let me use it, as 2 kids had dentist appointments, 2 kids had doctor appointments and J had physical therapy. The dentist was fast, we were out of there in less than an hour. The doctor's office took over an hour and we didn't have much waiting. It was great how through the visit was for both girls. PT took over 2 hours. I hate first visits. I was supposed to go to my book club tonight, but I'll need to go pick P up from work, then we'll have to go pick up the battery for my car. What a long day this has been.

Now I've lost a week!

No not really, but I haven't blogged anything in over a week. Last Saturday I spent the day cooking and cleaning and washing yuck, but then we went out for dinner for my sister-in-laws birthday, that was fun. Sunday we served in the toddler room, the kids and I stayed for service and P went to watch the Cardinal game with his Dad. Monday after school I had to take J to his pre-surgery appointments. (doctor, crutches, blood work)Tuesday I thought I was taking J to scouts and rushed about doing things after school, only to be told there was no scouts. sigh. J's knee surgery went well on Wednesday morning, the doctor removed a 2cm by 1.5 cm piece of cartilage.. He will need to have his ACL fixed it as it is torn, the doctor also released the tendon in his knee cap so it floats into the correct place, J will have to have that done to his right knee too. J wanted me to stay home with him on Thursday. We played games and hung out. Friday morning I was felling pretty yucky and stayed home again. I didn't feel like eating until about 2:30 PM on Saturday, just the thought of food make me feel yucky. Today we all over slept and missed church. I thought P had set the alarm and he thought I had. I took R this afternoon to see The Princess and the Frog, finally. S went to a concert with her grandpa, P took me to see It's Complicated. When we were leaving the theater the car would not start. A fellow movie watcher group helped jump it. P took it to Checker who said the battery was fine it just needs to be charged. P will have to take it back tomorrow for them to do that. I'll have to take P's car tomorrow as the kids and I have a day full of appointments. Dentist, doctors and physical therapy.

Losing my brain

Thursday night I put together our grocery list. I keep having to go back and add things because of things I didn't remember to put on it. On Friday morning just as I was heading out the door for school I thought of 2 more things. I didn't have time to find a pencil (which sometimes takes awhile at this house, and forget about finding a pen) and to write the items on my list. So I left remembering that one item started with 3 letters and the other with 4. By lunch yesterday I could only remember what the 4 letter item was. It bothered me the rest of the day, and the hour I'm walking around the store. I had to make a pit stop to the bathroom before checking out. While in there I over hear a little boy saying to his Mommy he is done with his gum. The light bulb in my brain goes off! GUM! That's my 3 letter item! I like to keep gum at school for after lunch because I hate being in student's faces with blah breath. After lunch yesterday I grabbed my last piece, and one would think that would have triggered my brain that, that was my missing 3 letter item, but sadly it did not. I thanked the little boy in the bathroom, his Mom thought I was funny. I just think I'm losing my brain. What reminded of this story is that I just thought to myself, there's something else I want to do online right, but I can't remember what it is :( I'm sure it wasn't any big deal and I can do it later, but it still bothers me that I can't remember what it was.

8 weeks to Spring Break

OK, I'm not totally counting down the days, but a co-worker had mentioned it on Monday morning that we have 9 weeks and days off in those weeks until Spring Break. Thus since we managed to survive one week, 8 more to go! I thought the week went by pretty fast, and that's always a good thing. After having a 2 week break from dance, the girls resumed classes this week. R who sometimes fights with me about taking classes, was jumping around all over the place, well I guess dancing, she was to excited to go to her classes. I guess the 2 week break was good for her. S on the other hand said "I hated we had 2 weeks off!"

Working Order

Well my stomach issues are in working order, kind of, I'm not having nausea anymore, but my colons are working overtime anytime I eat anything. But I'm not having the terrible pains I was having, so I'll venture on. Only one nostril at a time let me breath out of my nose, but I'm going to look positive at at least one side is working. The inside Christmas decorations are put away, and the everyday stuff is back up. The living room still needs a little work, P was having a hard time vacuuming, the breaker kept tripping, so he gave up. P is off on Wednesday so hopefully the outside lights will be put away then. Tomorrow we go back to school. No one here is all that excited about it. It's going to be tough getting back into the swing of things after 2 lovely weeks off.

Welcome 2010!

I'm going to bed now!

Merry Christmas!

The girls and I on our way to church on Christmas Eve. P and J are at work.

Young and Old

Yesterday I went to Fry's for groceries, and I've shopped at that location for a long time the cashier said it was her 37th Christmas at Smitty's/Fred Meyer, Fry's. That made me feel very young. I was 6 when she started working! Today the girls and I went to the dentist, R and I to get our teeth cleaned and S had a tooth that needed to be pulled. The dentist that cleaned my teeth, not the regular dentist, was talking the whole time, asking questions, I nearly choked when he asked if I had any grandchildren. That made me feel very old. Geez, I do have friends I graduated with that are grandparents, but my oldest is only 16.

Christmas Lights 2009

Not as may lights as in years past. Last year we had a problem with the lights blowing fuses, so P decided he would alternate the roof one year and the snowmen and deer the other year. I miss the deer and snowmen :(

He did it!

For the first time since he was in 6th grade J earned honor roll! At his high school they do grades only at the end of semesters, I am beyond thrilled! If you know of his struggles the for the last 5 years you would understand my excitement. S and R also earned honor roll for the 2nd quarter. I am one proud Mommy!

Contacts

S has started in the past 2 weeks not wearing her glasses. She's decided they are very uncool, even at home unless I ask her where they are, so I know she hasn't lost them.. R desperately wants glasses because she thinks they are cool, but right now her eyes are not bad enough to have them. S's eyes really are not good enough to see well for long periods of time. I know when I was in 5th grade I hide my glasses in my desk everyday, my eyes are much better that S's. I totally get S thinking they are uncool. She last went to the eye doctor in January she will have wait a few more weeks to go back. Last year the doctor said when she was 13 she could get contacts. I don't know if she remembers or not, I think I won't say anything and surprise her and wait to tell her when we get there.

Armed Services Vocational Aptitude Battery (ASVAB)

J took this test in October. On Saturday a Air Force Sergent called him. He did very well on it. 74th percentile, which I guess is good. He was very happy to hear he did well. The Sergent said he will most likely be able to pick the job/speciality he's most interested in doing, which made J very happy. Speaking of J, his knee surgery will be on Jan. 13th, Aunt Marlene's birthday, he missed sharing a room with Aunt Jul by 2 days, her knee replacement surgery is on the 15th. Oh, that reminds me I meant to fill out the form today for a personal day for the 13th, I need to remember to do that tomorrow.

Productive weekend

I got a lot of my Christmas wrapping done on Friday afternoon. I even talked P into helping me after dinner. It feels good to have that mostly done. Saturday I had to get up early, but not as early as the Saturday before J needed to be dropped off at 8, to gather mistletoe with his scout troop. When I got home I laid back down for a little bit, not that I fell back to sleep, but resting felt good, my cold seems to be getting worse not better. I had to wake both girls up at 12, in order to be downtown by 2, so we could watch their cousins dance in The Snow Queen. When we got home I reluctantly did 4 loads of laundry. After church today I started my Christmas baking. 4 loaves of Amish Friendship bread, and pizzels. I think I'll only be baking a few different kinds of cookies, peanut blossoms, M and M's, chocolate chip, and sugar cut outs. Since I really suck at making fudge, I'm not even planning on trying this year, the only candy I plan on making is Christmas bark. Only 4 and a half more days of school,(until winter break) Although I am working till 3 on Friday, I don't want to use my personal time to leave at 12 when students leave, we have to option of working, not getting paid for 3 hours or using personal time, teachers get to leave when students do though, so not fair! I am so ready for the break.

Not trying to stress

But I'm having a hard time keeping myself in check. Not getting enough sleep, and a cold on top of that isn't helping my stress level. I did cross off 2 major things on my to do list. Christmas cards, and the invitations for our church Angel Tree party. I just need to stamp everything to mail. I called P at work to bring me the stamps. I tried cutting down on the amount of cards send this year, by only sending cards to just my first cousins and not second cousins. Since I only send cards to P's Aunts and Uncles, I already send way more cards for my family. The tree is still not decorated yet. Well, that's not completely true, someone started to, but then got bored or something. I have 4 boxes sitting on my living room couch, and on the love seat there's a large broken down box for S to use in her project that's due soon, I hope. The only place to sit in my living room is on 1 of 2 computer chairs. The boxes are making me feel claustrophobic. P is off tomorrow I have hope that the outside lights go up and the tree gets finished. Well, maybe not the tree the girls have dance and J has to work 6 hours. I haven't baked one cookie or wrapped one present yet. Maybe this weekend, I can fit something in, in between all the other activities. I will not stress, and enjoy December, and get a couple of good nights sleep to kick this cold...

Emotions

I'm sure that some of the extreme emotions I felt yesterday had to do with being up since 5:30 AM. Yesterday was the first of 2 shows for my girls as they danced in The Snow Queen. While they were on stage dancing during the first show I just felt very proud of them and happy, and frustrated that because they are in the same scene very hard to watch them both at the same time, and they were on different ends of the stage the whole time. At the end of the show all the dancers come out by group to take a bow. I cried then. The plan was to come home between shows to grab something to eat before heading back downtown for the next show. S and R didn't come out of the dressing room, everyone else left including the show's director, and still no S and R, I was freaking out, and it was worse because I'm the only one standing there waiting for them. I tried to go back to get them, but because of security they wouldn't let me. Finally they come out, They are not alone they have another girl with them, who is about R's age. She wants to go to Subway, R wants to go with her. I was very angry at that point and no way would I let R walk around downtown without an adult and we needed to go home not only to get dinner but to get P who was coming to the evening show. I'm sure I embarrassed her with my anger. I felt embarrassed too, but I was stressed out and angry. We finally made it to the car, and surprisingly I figured out how to get to the freeway by myself. Only one freeway curves off and the freeway I'm in the wrong lane to get on the freeway I need to be to get home. Sigh. So I get off the wrong freeway to turn around to get on the right one to get home. By the time we stopped to get food (fast food) to eat at home, because J and P needed dinner too, we had 30 minutes to eat before we had to leave to drive downtown again. I'll get back to what P did that made me crazy. On the drive home, my cell phone rang. S got it out of my purse for me, I just figured it would be P or J wanting to know where we were or what's for dinner. Nope, it was my MIL who tells me that herself and FIL will not be coming to the evening performance, because her brother died and she was too upset to go and FIL was going to stay with her, so he wouldn't be coming either. OK, I get it that her brother just died and she's upset, I don't want to sound cold here but her brother had cancer, and really he lived a lot longer than his doctor thought he would. So it shouldn't really come as a shock that he died. There's more feelings into this, but I can't get into it. P called her when we got home last night and she couldn't talk very long to him without crying. So she hands the phone off to Dad, P asks his Dad about the Cardinal game they are supposed to go to today. Yes, he would still be going to that. MIL wants him to go. WHAT. That really angers me. She'll be OK, the day after her brother dies, for her husband to go to a football game, but not be OK to let him go watch his granddaughters dance the night before? Really, really angers me. I thought I would feel better about it today, but really it makes me more angrier, because you see my husband as in S and R's father is going to this football game with his father and not going to watch his daughters dance. Back to P last night. He just was getting home when we pulled up to the house at 5 PM. Only he forgot to get my prescriptions that I've had on the counter since Wednesday, I call the scripts in and leave the empty bottles on the counter, so he knows to pick them up, they are filled at the pharmacy located in the store he works at. He leaves to go back to get them. So instead of having a little (and I mean little since we only had 30 minutes anyway) of a peaceful family meal together, I was left to do everything and be stressed that he would be back by 5:30. He barely makes it, and I don't talk to him the whole drive downtown. There was just too much for me to be able to talk nicely, so I just didn't say anything.

Snow Queen Weekend Ahead!

This afternoon P (so thankful he was off to take them to one of the rehearsals) took the girl to their first of 2 rehearsals at the theater they will be dancing at for 4 shows this weekend. Tomorrow I get to take them to the second one. Then I get to take them Saturday for the first show by myself, come home and pick up P and J, and go back down for the evening show (P can drive us then). Sunday I get to do the whole day by myself. I so NOT like to drive down town. I always feel all mixed up, when driving down there, I am already feeling very stressed out. I took J to work, and got groceries this afternoon, which I hate doing, well both buying groceries and going after I've been on my feet all day at school. The girls needed to have snacks for back stage and we'll need food to eat next week, no time for that this weekend. But man oh man do my feet hurt. And I started coughing this afternoon and it's getting on my nerves already. It better go away fast.

What a Mess!

I love decorating for Christmas, but I hate all the mess. It is very time consuming too. The kids were supposed to help me, but that didn't work out so much. J was the most helpful and he worked 8 hours today. If I can convince one of the girls to vacuum I'd be happier about all the boxes stacked in the family room. P is off tomorrow, the boxes should disappear into the attic then.

I am sweating!

I dropped J off to work (safety training) for the first time this morning. I wanted to take his picture, but I didn't want to embarrass him. Yesterday I put away all the autumn decorations and did 5 loads of laundry. Today I am boxing up most of the everyday decorations around the house and washing 4 more loads of laundry (the girls cleaned their room yesterday). I have 6 boxes done, with 2 more to go, I am waiting until the dishwasher is done, because I wanted to wash all my mugs and teapots I've collected since high school first, my plan is to have them clean for the month they are in the attic, so when I'm ready to put them back they are clean and dust free. I'm ready for P and J to get the Christmas boxes out of the attic, when they both get off work this afternoon. Hope I feel like starting to decorate tomorrow. I thought the weather was supposed to be in the 60's today, so I put sweat pants on this morning, I am so hot, I should have put shorts on to work this hard!

Exciting News

But I can't tell you what. But he will be home for 30 days starting Dec. 12th!

Happy Thanksgiving!

I hope everyone will remember all the blessings in their lives, whether they are large or small. We will be home all day, I don't want to take R out, she needs to rest and let her rash clear up.

Medical updates

Monday I went to have my bruising and claw marks looked at. Thank goodness I had a appointment. Or maybe it would have taken 2 hours. It took about an hour and 45 minutes. On Friday I asked if it was going to take a long time, and was assured it wouldn't since I had an appointment. NOT. The only thing the doctor did was look at it, and said "it was healing nicely". What a compete waste of time. The antibiotics they gave me caused a yeast infection. So not pleasant and it's been since Sunday. I only took 2 pills. Rachel woke up yesterday morning covered from head to toe with a rash. P was at work already. We took the day off and headed to the doctor's office. Her doctor said it's hives, but from what we don't have a clue, nothing new. Off we went to buy Zyrtec and Calamine lotion. By the afternoon and a long afternoon nap for her, it was worse. Since it was too soon for more Zyrtec the doctor said Benadryl and Avenno lotion. This morning she was still broken out and had more redness than last night. I called the doctor who said that's normal, but no school again for either of us, P again was at work already. J went to the Orthopedic doctor yesterday afternoon. Good think P was off then, so he could take him, but I don't feel like all my questions were answered, I should have taken him, but I was already trying to handle R's crises. The MRI J had done a few weeks ago showed cartilage that broke loose under the knee cap, he will need to have that fixed, or it could blow his knee out completely. Maybe that could be scheduled for January when my sister is having her knee replaced, they could take care of each other! J's surgery is not supposed to be that bad, like maybe crutches for a few days, he may not miss any school except for the day the procedure is done. I don't know when that's going to be yet, I was hoping the doctor's office would call today to schedule it since I'm home.

Really?

Was it necessary to have a fire drill and lock down drill on the same morning at school? The lock down didn't go well, so have to do it again one day next week. Oh, joy. In between drills we had a student incident. Which took an hour to take care of. I was left with claw marks, swelling and bruising. I had to go and file a claim, and get a tenuous shot. Took over 2 hours, and I am only going to get paid 30 minutes for that time, and I have to go back on Monday. To say that today was a long day would be putting it mildly. Now, J is off at a friend's house watching a movie, S is spending the night at a friend's house, P is working till 11:30, and R is have 2 friends over to spend the night. I just want to veg. in front of a movie and relax.

Seaweed!

R is so funny, last week I made spaghetti squash for the first time for my family. R said she kinda liked it, but ate 2 big helpings. Tonight I cut up a kiwi for each of us for dinner. She first thought it was too sweet, and wasn't going to eat it. I mentioned that I think kiwi kinda tastes like strawberries to me, which she loves. She tried the kiwi again, she rated it kinda good, like the seaweed last week! LOL She then asked for another, cut it up herself and ate it, and was disappointed that there are no more left, maybe she'll get desperate and eat J's who hasn't eaten yet, because he's to busy polishing his shoes for a competition this weekend to come out and to eat.

Not Striking!

P's union made an agreement with the company and right now they won't be striking! Union employees still have to vote and approve the contract. I am hopeful the employees will approve the contact. I heard this news early yesterday morning, but felt better by the news after talking to P about it after he got off work yesterday. What a relief! J was hired as a temporary employee if they striked and filled out all the paperwork, they need carry outs at P's old store (the store that hired J), the front end manger talked to P yesterday and him to have J to call her on Monday.

Veteran's Day Parade

J marched with his JROTC unit today in the Phoenix parade. The rest of us went to watch. Long 6 block to the parade for me, and 6 longer blocks back to the car. Oh, how I which my feet could walk pain free, like they used to. I was thinking earlier about the many parades I marched in when I was in middle school and high school. The veteran's one was always iffy on what the weather would be like. Well really any parade in PA was iffy on the weather. Like rain my freshman year's fair parade, sunny and hot during a Christmas parade, and the worst year was one was it snowed during a parade, a veteran's day parade, which must not have been on Veteran's Day because we had a football game that night too, I remember my Mom trying to steam dry my uniform so I didn't have to wear a wet wool uniform all night in freezing temps. Must have been the last game of the season or close to it, by the second week in November.

No go on the cell phone and job for J?

Cell phone doesn't work. Not sure when I'll be replacing it. Thinking it should wait until we see what happens this week and P's job. J was supposed to have an interview today at 5 at P's old Fry's, only the computers were down, so she asked him to wait 30 minutes. I decided to do some grocery shopping, not to waste time doing nothing. Then at 5:30, she says come back between 7-7:30, only I had him call before we drove down there, and now the interview is tomorrow at 3:30. There is supposed to be a meeting on Wednesday (I think) for union employees. I hope they get to vote, whether if they'll except the contract or strike. P says the union is fighting for future employees rights and not current union employees.

Washed cell phone

I think it was S who had my cell phone last night, and she put it in her pocket, and didn't take it out of her pocket, thus when laundry was done today it was washed. I took the battery out, and the phone and battery are "drying" on the counter. What do you think, will the phone ever work again?

Strike?

P's employer could let the union strike. For 3 years the current contract has been extended. The last extended date was Oct. 30th. Yesterday P got a letter in the mail, that said if contact negotiations are not reached by Nov. 13th, the union will strike. I'm really having a hard time believing that a big grocery chain would really let the union employees strike so close the the holiday season, (union employees make up most of the adult employees) just seems like the company would lose a lot of money by, bad publicity and if they have to hire new employees thus poorly run stores. Maybe in there is wishful thinking, and a lot of fear too. Raises and insurance premiums I think is the bottom line in the stale between the two sides. While paying $800 a year for insurance premiums is not a lot, compared to other companies, it's a lot when you've never had to pay premiums before. Without P's income we would be in some serious financial problems.

Medical dramas

I love medical dramas. OK, House is a bit weird for me though. I think it all started with Emergency, from when I was a child. Other top favs were, St. Elsewhere, Ryan's 4, Quincy, Chicago Hope, Er, Grey's Anatomy, Trapper John MD, Third Watch, Private Practice.. I'm sure there were others, but that's what I can think of off the top of my head. This T,V. season brought me 3 new ones, and I'm sad to learn my favorite one is going to be canceled Trauma :( Mercy, and Three Rivers haven't gotten the ax yet.

The hardest part

About working at the school in the neighborhood you live in is that were ever you go you see families everywhere you go. Like when I grocery shop I see on average 3 families per trip. It's sometimes embarrassing seeing them at the drug store. I see families at Dollar Tree every time I'm there, no matter when I'm there. Target, Payless, etc. too. Today was the first time I had a family see me getting gas. Geez, I love the kids, but sometimes just want a break from being Mrs. M-----!

carpel tunnel or something else?

A few weeks ago, a student grabbed my right wrist (it was a reflex) I reflectively pulled away, which left my wrist scratched, which later turned to bruising. Since then my hand has been hurting, not all the time, just when I use it, it feels weaker and my hand hurts when I am sleeping. It seems to be getting worse and not better. Is it a coincidence? Or did he injure me some how? Arthritis? It's just so weird because the bruise is gone, there's no swelling, but it hurts. I guess I should try to remember to call my doctor and schedule an appointment :(

Six Flags

S is in CA with the church youth group at Six Flags. I know my dare devil daughter will have a blast, even though I've never been to Six Flags myself. Please pray for safety for her, and the rest of the kids and adults that went. She'll be home tomorrow morning at 7 AM.

Homecoming

Yesterday was J's school's homecoming football game. The JROTC participated in the parade yesterday morning. Juniors and senors got to hand out candy. S and the rest of her middle school got to watch. J was on S's side of the street, she got lots of candy from big brother and was very popular, which is good for her, because she really struggles to make friends. It was cool to hear she got to see him in the parade. Next year I will have to take personal time to go see him, in his last homecoming parade. A few weeks ago J asked a girl to go to the homecoming dance. First time ever he has asked a girl out, she didn't want to go to the dance, he asked her if she wanted to go to a movie or go hang out at the mall! (He asked me what do you do when you hang out at the mall though!, he's never done that before, but knew it was something teens do, lol!)

Geez, it's been 10 days since my last post

And I only have 5 minutes before Grey's Anatomy starts. I guess even with P being on vacation for almost 2 weeks, hasn't left me with any more time. He has helped me by taking the kids to their activities, that has been nice. Today was a long day at work, for parent/teacher conferences. But it will be worth it leaving tomorrow for the day at 12! S did well first quarter in Middle School, earning honor roll. R did well, with everything except writing, which sadly kept her of honor roll. She was positive and said she has 3 more quarters to earn it. That's my girl! Not to leave J out he has semester grades in high school on quarterly grades. But he is doing well, even with junior year being tough.

Sad

The 3 day weekend is over. Friday after school, I went grocery shopping so there would be one less thing to do during our 3 day weekend. We all just hung out as a family Friday night. Sat. I did a few errands and got meals prepped for this week, and laundry done, and I watched disc 2 of the first season on Fame, and watched My Life In Ruins. I had a sinus headache that would not go away. I was sound asleep before P made it home from work at 8:30. Sunday morning I had to leave extra early to set up for church, and greet/sign in the babies through 3 year olds, for both services. Grabbed some lunch, picked up girls took them to their Snow Queen rehearsal. Very disappointed to find out that S and R, will not be dancing the same weekend as their cousins. There's nothing we can do about it, so even though it upsets me, I am not going to let it destroy me. Dropped S off at Aunt Jul's for the rest of the day and night. The rest of us played a really long new game P got on clearance at Fry's called- Pirates. R and I got bored with it, so we weren't very upset when we lost all our gold coins. I have been watching all the new medical dramas that just started. One was on last night, I feel asleep last week watching it, and again this week. I just kinda wanted to like it because the hospital is in Pittsburgh. I'll give it another chance. Today we dropped my car off to be fixed, AC, weird lights coming on, new tire, oil change, clicker thing. Saturn fixed it all except the clicker thing they have to order, today while we were at the movies. We went to the Toy Story (s) in 3D, I think it was a waste to spend the money on seeing the movies that we own, even if they are playing in 3D. P loved it, so I guess that's good, that one income maker did. I need to be off to bed, but I'm curious about why P's Dad called P and his brother over to talk about the weekend grand Canyon hike that they are supposed to leave for on Friday.

I thought

yesterday's headache was bad. But today's is even worse. Blah. Tylenol hasn't helped much. I'm starting to feel very crabby.

One more day...

Then a 3 day weekend! Illnesses have taken a hold of lots of kiddos, but surprisingly not much staff on the campus I work at. Not me or R, thank goodness. But it's made my work load a lot harder the past 3 days.

Hours in the Day

The weeks are so long in between weekends. And really even though I am "off" from work. I've been busy doing stuff since 8 this morning. I am so tired. I've totally been thinking about for a few weeks, how can I enjoy more of my weekends, like have a day I can sleep in, lay about and do nothing, or go do something fun the whole day. It's not like I don't do anything all week long. I do laundry 2 times during the week, so I'm not doing a million loads on Sat. Today is 5 loads, and I'm not done yet. I could get away with not making ahead or starting a few meals for during the week on Sat. but I like to have my menus planned and dinners at least prepped, so when I come home from work, I don't have to stand any longer than necessary at the stove, my feet hurt and I'm so tired, and then there's always having to shuffle kids around stuff and making sure homework gets done. The house is roughly cleaned, which the kids helped me with. P is off at 4:30, the plan is to take the kids to see the Toy Story's in 3D, right now I am much to tired, but I am hating myself for wanting to stay home and just let him take them. It has been ages since we've all done something together. I'm supposed to go to a church meeting at 9 tomorrow, but I said I couldn't be there, I already feel terrible about missing it. There's just not enough hours in the day for me, I'm so tired.

Excuses

I am getting pretty tired of them. From mostly the guys who live in this house. One of who blames his disrespectful attitude on being a teen. I'm thinking yes he is a teenager, but if he knows he's doing it, why can't he stop doing it. I am very thankful for my friend who listened to me, and understood, especially when I am crying. The weekend has had it's ups and downs. Friday night mostly down. But I watched a movie with R. Sat started with a BIG down, that lasted until it was time for the girls and I to leave for a cousin's baby shower. Those next 5 hours were very fun, I really miss being with my family. Came home to being way down again. The girls and I watched a movie together and things stayed up because I went to bed. Sunday morning was the usual one person getting up before the rest of us, but waking me up. When I got out of bed 40 minutes later, I woke up the children, and kept them on track to make sure we'd get to church on time. While the one who woke up first, just took care of himself. He did try to talk to be as I was getting in the shower, I'm not sure what he thought he was going to accomplish by picking that time to talk to me, other than seeing my naked body. He had not talked to me for 24 hours. He tells me he's sorry, for what I want to know. That's about all we've said to one another today except where do you what to go to lunch. Of which we brought home to eat, and he sat like a lump eating, while I tried to hold conversations with the children. I cried though most of church. Message was relationships and are you a fighter or flighter. Based on Luke 15 and the prodigal son. At one point Pastor Ray went off on a side note on wives respect your husband and husbands love your lives, and added if there is discord the husband is the head of the household needs to make the first move. Well that never happens, it's very hard to respect when I do not feel loved and cherished like the bride of Christ loves his church. So after all my tears I had to take my messy contacts out and had wear my glasses to take the girls to their first Snow Queen rehearsal, followed by going to see the movie Fame. I loved it, but it left me with wanting more. S liked it, but she thought it went to fast and R was bored until about senor year and the end of the movie. We talked through some of the scenes, that could happen to them in real life and what to do if this happens to you kinda talk. One more down thing- why was it so freaking hot today! It's the end of September for goodness sakes.

I cannot wake up

I am so tired this morning. I'd love to crawl back into bed. I'm not sure why I am more tired today than on other days. It's gonna be a long day :(

Cooking

Even though I slept terribly last night, either coughing or weird dreaming, I have energy. But I feel exhausted. J went with me this morning to the co-op to pick up our fruits and veggies for the week. He drove and I coughed the whole way there, OK for 10 minutes straight, he even noticed. standing in the humid outdoors waiting I didn't cough once. I got tons of tomatoes, so I thought I'd try to make sauce again. Last time it was way to watery. It looked better today, but still watery and I didn't even add any water. J thought it smelled awesome though, guess we'll find out on Monday when we have it for dinner. Didn't feel like standing over the stove to make meatballs, so I just browned the meat and threw it in the sauce. Then while I was on a roll I threw a meatloaf together and threw it in the oven, browned some chicken tenders to make white chicken chili one night this week too. One morning this week, I'll throw a whole chicken in the crock pot, I feel so way ahead of the coming week already, it feels great. Now only if the pork chops and corn were cooked for tonight's dinner :( I did make an apple crisp for dessert already though :) The oven was on, so I figured I should make the most of it, it's still way to hot really to turn on the oven in my opinion unless you plan on really baking. I'll close from this funny quote from our old pastor. Just think...when you go into court, you are putting yourself in the hands of 12 people who weren't smart enough to get out of jury duty.

sick sick

S made it to school today, but I did not. She missed 3 days of school. Yesterday I had P take her to the doctor who said it was "viral". She started to feel better last night. About the time I was coughing so hard I threw up my dinner. I slept terribly and decided I better take a day off and see the doctor. My right ear is full of fluid and I have bronchitis. I will not be doing much this weekend, if I can help it.

Yesterday was plan awful

I felt awful yesterday. I did nothing. All day. I felt lazy. But I really didn't care. I feel a some better today. I found some antibiotics yesterday I had from my last infection and started on them. Saturday unloading groceries into my car in the pouring rain probably didn't help my cold at all. It's been at least a year we've seen it rain that hard and for so long in Phoenix. I was trying to hurry and I threw my keys in the trunk of the car while throwing in the groceries. Then I shut the trunk. Luckily I unlocked the car before opening the trunk to begin with. And had grabbed an umbrella. Got back into the trunk but couldn't find the keys. Called home. The line was busy. Great S is awake. That girl could be on the phone for hours. Called P's cell, but I knew he was in bed so he would not know I called. Called J's cell. Why he didn't answer I don't know. Tried the house again. S answers. P brings me the other set of keys. It takes him 30 minutes to get to Fry's a half a mile away, (he drove, not walked). It is now only barely sprinkling. But I am soaked. While I was waiting for my rescue I called my sister to wish her a happy birthday in Spanish as is our tradition. S had woke up do to the thunder and lighting. Went looking for me, freaked out because my car was gone. Then when I called home the first thing she says to be is "What's wrong?" After unloading the groceries and putting them away I put on dry warm clothes and started the laundry. Then I had afternoon errands to do. It was quite a long day. No wonder I felt so horrible yesterday. This afternoon the kids and I are going to the grandparents house for their birthdays. I don't want to push myself to hard. We may not stay very long. And S has a stomach ache. She says "it feels like someone either punched me in the stomach or stabbed me). She also has tiny pin pricked marks on her stomach area. I'm ready to go to bed now.

A cold and other random things

Yesterday day, all day long I had a very sore throat. It felt like it was on fire. As soon as I got home from school, I was coughing. My ears were ringing and and my nose was running before I went to bed. I loaded myself up with cold medicine before school today. I felt OK, all day until 3 and then my throat felt like it was on fire again. UGH. I am so glad we have a 3 day weekend. J joined the ROTC drill team. Which is great for him to get more involved at school. But that also means 4 days a week I have to go pick him up at 4PM. If I knew P would be home more often when we are, it wouldn't seem so bad, I feel like a single parent all they time. It gets old. The last few days at work were a nightmare, not the students but the sub in the learning center I am in for all but 1.5 hours of my day. She thinks she knows everything. But really she's a talker and not so much of a doer. I've been getting free coupons donated from local businesses for school for straight A's and Honor Roll students. That's been a job in a half. The best one I got was from Sardellas' is awesome they sent free pizza coupons for the teachers, and free slice coupons for classroom treasure chests, and free pizza coupons for straight A's and Honor Role students. Not much planned for the weekend except for chores and a birthday party for my FIL and MIL on Monday. J is going to help his uncle lay some new flooring too. And I hope to see my sister and oldest niece for their birthdays.

How can I have just...

Did 4 kinda big loads of laundry on Tuesday and now tonight I have 4 more to do? It's like the clothes are mating and having babies! Enough already. Maybe it wouldn't bug me so much if I wasn't so darn tired.

Morning visitor

This little guy was hanging out in front of P's car this morning when S left for the bus for school. I hope he found his way home. We didn't know where he belongs, or we would have taken him home.

Positives and negatives

On the plus side we didn't have to go to a training on the first early release day. On the negative, we had to stay on campus. While that wouldn't normally be a bad thing, it was today because there was too much work to do and I still came home sweating. Plus- my eyes felt great all day, negative- my eyes starting hurting as soon as I got to the dance studio to sit for an hour. Negative- I forgot J needed to be at Moon Mountain Elementary school at 5:45. Positive- he was only 5 minutes late. Negative- I still have to go pick S up from dance at 7. Positive- J got a ride home from one of the other scout moms, which is good since he's done at 7 too. Negative- I had to get dinner ready and in the oven before 4:10, I got home at 3:30. Positive meatloaf and potatoes were good. Negative- I ate too much. The jury is still out on butternut squash. I thought it was OK, R spit her's out, and no one else had eaten it yet. Negative- I am so tired. Positive it's almost my bed time. I can not stay awake much later than 9 PM. Negative- the kids are in charge of putting themselves to bed, and staying awake until 9:30 last night to finish the laundry was horrible for me, I kept falling asleep on the couch. Positive P only works until 8:30 tomorrow night so he can make sure the kids go to sleep. They must be doing OK, with going to bed, since no one has had trouble getting up in the morning. Positive- neither J or S have missed their bus, to or from school. Don't want that to be a negative at all, all year! Positive- a high school boy friend found me on Facebook, which is so cool to be reconnected with him, he lives in Long Beach and his in-laws live in Phoenix. I think it would be fun for our spouses to met!That's all I can think of right now.

Dry Eyes

What the heck, my eyes are so dry they hurt so much. I think I'm going to scream. I thought taking my contacts out would help. I think they even feel worse, how can that be? Grrrrr

Here today gone tomorrow

Yesterday I decided or God helped me along in deciding to just enjoy the day with my special student I had all last year. Even though I am feeling really sad that she'll be going to another school tomorrow, we had a good time today. Maybe not as fun as the day last week when we splattered Ranch dressing all over, including us, but it was close. I walked her out to the car so she could hug me goodbye. Her Aunt invited me over to visit anytime. I may have to take her up on that. I'm not sure what I'll be doing tomorrow exactly, but we are short all over in coverage so that won't be much of a problem, it just won't be the same as taking a little kindergartner and watching her learn, push herself in her wheelchair, walk, and use the toilet.

Lovely morning before it got humid!

Waking up on a Saturday was a drag, but because of a wonderful thunder storm last night (with rain even!) It was very pleasant at 8 this morning picking up our href="http://02b8ce3.netsolstores.com/login.aspx?checkout">Fruit and Veggie basket This is the first time I'm trying this to see how it goes, I did go to the grocery store right after and as I scanned the produce section I really could take note of how much we saved. You never know what you are going to get. That might be a challenge for me and my picky eaters. And we will try different things that I probably wouldn't buy. Like today there was 2 butternut squase. I'll have to look up what to do with that! J was very pleased with the tomatoes. Because I don't like tomatoes so I never buy them. R especially will be very pleased by the very yummy looking strawberries. J went back to bed after he helped me. (I told him he could) Then I went off to href="http://frysfood.com">Frys for the rest of the groceries for the next 2 weeks. I hate going to the grocery store. I was trying to go every 3-4 weeks, but I think it will be easier to plan for 2 weeks, which in my state of tiredness seems like a good plan. Who knows maybe I'll hate having to go every other week. One load of laundry done 3 or 4 more to go, then I think I'll take a nap!

I am so tired.

I think if it wasn't so darn hot. I wouldn't be so tired. But maybe, there a lot of walking and physical stuff I do. So, the heat does not help. I am just drained every afternoon when we get home. Then to have to cook dinner or go back out again, really seems to put me in a bad mood. That's not so possible at least 3 days a week. I've done really well cooking dinner every night this week even though I didn't want to. but I think Friday's should be pizza night. Maybe in a few weeks when I get a real pay check. Unlike the one I got yesterday for 1 day, even though I worked 2! But the first day was extra duty and not contract, yet mandatory. Figure that out! Monday could be the last day for my special student that I love so. Her family is moving and she couldn't be varianced in. For a really dumb reason. I am going to miss her something awful. We found out today, it was her last day, but it got changed to Monday. I am very sad.

OH for goodness sakes

The school A/C circuits were tripped or something, it was cooler outside than it was inside this morning. So after a hot morning in the classroom we get to go outside for lunch recess and it's now about 110 outside. We were Hot, but then we were HOT~!!!!!!!

Are you kidding

Fire drill day 2 of school, what the heck was that about about. Caught the staff all of guard too. We usually know about them in advance. Not today at 2:30. 108 degrees outside too! Blah. R's teacher wasn't there today, she had S's 4th grade teacher who retired and has subbed since retiring S's class was the last year he taught. So, R had a good day she's had the sub as a teacher more days than her 4th grade teacher!

I think it's too hot for school to start!

But we all made it through our day. R had the worst time of it, getting to know a new teacher and is male takes some getting used to. She'll be fine once she figures him out. S's schedule has lots of back and forth all over campus. J didn't have any complaints, but needs another expensive calculator for his algebra class. I bought these really expensive shoes that are suppose to be wonderful for my foot problem, they seemed OK over the weekend, by this afternoon, I was hating them. Should I wear them again tomorrow? Or some other pair of horrible shoes? UGH!!!!!!!!!!!! I'd really like someone to rub my feet.

Craziness!

I woke up this morning, FREEZING! I think the A/C guy did a great job fixing the problem. I had to take a long hot shower to warm up. Of course as soon as I was decorating walls in classrooms, I was sweating. At lunch some how I managed to bit my tongue. It still hurts! What pleases me- My first 2 days, I will be in a 1st grade classroom with the girl I was with last year, then I'll go with her to the learning center for part of her day. Unless our mapping gets changed again. But at least 2 of the service coordinators (they were the only ones in the room when we were talking about who's doing what) want me to be with her, since I know her the best and all her gadgets.

One Down 181 To Go!

I couldn't find my CPR and first aid card, which we'll need to fill out some new paperwork for this year, so lucky me I got to take the class this afternoon. And really one afternoon in a cool auditorium instead of sweating in a classroom, helping teachers set up their classrooms was awesome!

Ready or Not

Tomorrow is the first day back to school (work) for me. And it's a long day, I think so anyway. The first 4 hours will be at SDOCHS then we have an hour break for lunch and to get to our campuses, only now that I think of it do we have to stay until 4 or get to leave at 3:15? Guess I'll find out tomorrow. Monday I did a bunch of errands, including going to the DMV to get my handicap thing replaced, the sun melts them faster than they expire. That took just an hour Went to the grocery store too, but according to R we still don't have anything to eat. Funny I spent a lot of money on no food. Yesterday only 2 errands, library and Foot Source to get some shoes for me, that hopefully will feel great and help my feet. Managed to blacken as in char $20 worth of baby back ribs. That did not please me. Then last night it was getting really hot inside the house. When I checked the thermostat it said 92 degrees. It was a really long night. The A/C guy made it out at 6, by 7:30 the A/C was working. Well working rather hard to cool the house down. The girls started dance back up again today, so for 3 hours we got to get out of this heat! R had 1 of her classes today and S had 2. Tomorrow they reverse that. S seemed way better than the girls in both ballet and tap, and she is about the same age as the girls and even younger than some, and she's never been in classes with most of these girls before. Only 1 girl from last years ballet class, except she's in her tap class this year. Pretty strange.

I am ready for bed!

I tried to watch So You Think You Can Dance, Why I didn't? You might wonder. P did not record it right! :( Oh brother! Well at least I know who one. Still! Thursday afternoon we headed to Scottsdale and played in the pools at the Hyatt Resort. P had pizza delivered and we ate poolside. 4 hours of fun! We made it back to the room to see who won So You Think You Can Dance, I was pretty disappointed in the winner, she's not who I voted for and not my second choice either. I have the whole show taped and will watch it later on in the week. Friday after having a lovely breakfast at the resort, we stopped at home to get a few forgotten things, like I'm the only one who packed a jacked! I did tell the kids more than once to pack one. It turned out P packed one but forgot he had! We drove to Flagstaff in near silence, the girls had a DVD player in the back with headphones, J had his DVD player in the front with headphones and I had a book in the backseat. (J gets car sick so I have to sit in the back on long trips.) We ate a very late lunch, then checked into the hotel, and went swimming! The water was cold for an indoor pool, but it didn't bother the kids at all. We went out for a late dinner, and then went to bed. P, J, and R went to the Cardinals training camp with Grandpa, Uncle and cousin. S and I hung out at the hotel, went out for lunch and played in the pool. R was very tired when they got back, P and J along with Grandpa, Uncle and cousin went out for a late lunch. Then P took J and S to the Observatory, R was tired and she really wanted to swim. I couldn't handle any meltdowns from either R or J. R because she was tired and wanted to swim, and J for missing the Observatory. SO even though I was in the hotel all day, and had to put on a damp bathing suit, eeew. Rachel wanted someone who would play with her in the water, and I knew P would struggle with this because of how cold the water was, even though it bothered me I just didn't let it get to me. They were all happy. We didn't get many pics P's camera only stored 11 pics before the memory card said it was full, and even though I took 2 sets of charged recyclable batteries, they didn't hold there charge. A little disappointing. But wonderful memories were made. We made it home today about 2:30, and by 7, all the laundry was done and all the unpacking, and suitcases put away. Gotta get up early tomorrow S has to see the orthodontist, and then we get to go pick up her 7th grade schedule!

dates, pictures, date, and a little get away

P had to work his first 2 days of his vacation, but then will get those 2 days next week and he has jury duty one day next week, so he should only be working 2 days next week, so that doesn't seem so bad. Last night J and I went out on our date. We went to Black Angus and used my last birthday website offers coupon. It was great to save up to $18.99 at Black Angus. It's very expensive there these days. J just wanted to hang out with me, so a nice relaxing, dinner was perfect for him. Today we went to Target and had family pictures done. I like to do them every year, but we didn't manage to get it done last year. So, I thought this would be a perfect time to do it, before school, and other activities started and P on vacation. Other than it was a little hot out, it was perfect. Tonight P and I went out on a date. Dinner at Red Lobster with a gift Card I got in May. Then we went to see a movie-The Ugly Truth. I didn't much care for the language much at all. Very disappointed. Tomorrow afternoon we are headed to a resort in Scottsdale to play in their water park. Then on Friday we are heading up to Flagstaff for the weekend. P and J will join P's Dad, brother and our nephew at a Cardinals training camp and practice game. While the girls and I head off to a movie or swimming. Saturday night we'll head to the observatory, J was there a few weeks ago with his scout troop and says we must go! We'll spend the night in Flag and come home on Sunday to get ready for the busy week ahead.

Yea!

I fixed my titles to my blog problem!

sussessful event

We had lots of families show up for the Desert Breeze backpack party. Under the outside canopy wasn't so bad. I ended up getting the sponge water relay game started, then face painted for about 30 minutes before we headed inside for corn dogs and chips. They kids seemed to enjoy the message, then we handed out their backpacks, and otter pops as they were leaving. We had a relaxing evening, played Yahtzee, then watched a movie that I promptly slept through almost as soon as it started. I usually last a little longer than that. I guess I was pretty tired. Hope I sleep tonight. P did something with the car, hoping it would fix the problem, unfortunately it didn't. We'll have to take it in this week while P is on vacation.

Busy Week

My title is changing a new language. I've checked my settings I don't know what's up with it. How weird is that? It's been a busy couple of days. Tuesday was the dreaded Justice day, we were out of there in less than 2 hours, with only 1 shirt each for the girls, a pair of jeans for R and a pair of gray shorts S will need for PE. P was off early and we met up with his Dad, brother and our sister-in-law for dinner. I asked the kids to clean up my car for my birthday, it has been such a mess for a long time, I couldn't stand it. They listened! How long will they keep it that way? Wednesday was my birthday, the kids and P gave me my birthday card and breakfast in the living room, because can you believe it I was the first one up. That's sarcasm there, I think all summer I've been the first one up, unless P has to work at 7. We played some games on the Wii before P had to take a shower for work. The kids and I went to Red Robin for dinner, I had a web offer free birthday gourmet burger meal free coupon. The 4 of us ate for less then we would have fast foot because of the coupon, and they also gave us a free huge sundae. The girls and I watched So You Think You Can Dance, then everyone did there own thing until bed. P came home and we played Yatzee together I think I beat him in all but the first of 5 games we played. Yesterday afternoon R and I went out on a date, she's been despreciate to paint something at AS You Wish a pottery place. She painted a cute penguin bank with blue eyes. She wanted a Jamba Juice but I promised she could have one when we pick up the penguin. Because even though she said a Jamba Juice would be fine for dinner, I really thought she needed a little more real type food. Off the McDonald's her favorite place to eat. Then we picked up some personal things we needed at Walgreens. When we got home it was time for So You Think You Can Dance, and my favorite girl and my favorite guy are still in it!Today was S's date with me. We started at Valle Luna both of our favorite Mexican food restaurants. Then off shopping! a few more tops for her for back to school, she really wants skinny jeans but were not having any like finding what she wants in the correct size. After shopping we came home and watch Confessions of a Shopaholic. Cute movie, not as funny as the books at all. Tomorrow is the backpack outreach party at church. 41 families from my church and school will receive backpacks, and hear the gospel message from one of the young men that pastors over kids 1-5 grade.It's going to be a scorching hot day out there, but the families will be blessed. I just gotta keep remembering to drink water and not get dehydrated. Please pray for tomorrow and my car, not the cleanliness but overheating, it hasn't been fun doing all this driving in a car I'm afraid to run the A/C in, because I don't want to car to over heat. P said we'll take it in next week when he is on vacation.

Yum

I just ate the second grilled shrimp taco left over for my Rubios meal. I think it was even better than last night's. Mmmm, now I which I had another one.

Shopping

One long day. Took R to Target for school supplies and her backpack for the new year, and picked up basic stuff for J and S. I hate Middle School, and High School, you never know what the teachers will want for supplies and even though our school district doesn't require students to have their own supplies, I know that J and S will like to have their own things, and some teachers who want students to have certain things will give students bonuses for having various items. But the thing I hate is, parents don't have a clue what to buy, until after the student attends class on the first day of school. I want to shop now all at once and get everything they need now, and while the stores are having their back to school sales. After Target R and I went Famous Footwear. I had bought some shoes for me that someone recommended, only I couldn't stand them, but when I returned them I couldn't find the receipt, so I got a store credit. R found sneakers, and I picked out a pair for S because they were having a BOGO half off sale and I figured I could chance she might like them and I guessed at the right size. I picked up some socks for J too, only for sure I have to return those because he likes the over the ankle socks and I just got the footie ones. I'll wait until S tries on the shoes first before returning the socks. The R and I went to Rubios because I had a free meal and free taco coupon for joining their online site, the taco was free for joining and the meal for my birthday. We got it to go for dinner. Then we went to Cold Stone and I got my free birthday ice cream. It was so good. Coffee ice cream with caramel and pecans. R had this weird blue ice cream with gummy bears. We called that lunch. Came home and rested for an hour then off to Kohl's. J got some new Tees and I picked up a backpack for S, and J got one too. They are both Jansport for $30, which are guaranteed for life. I figured I could exchange that with S too if she hated it. But then I was thinking she should she happy that I was thinking of her and got it for her while she was hanging out with her aunt. After Kohl's J asked if we could go to Family Christian stores to look at other Tees. After really making sure he was going to wear Christian message Tees to school we headed there, and he got some other shirts. He should be set on shirts for school for the year. Then we went to Wing Stop and got free fries and 5 free wings, another web site offer thing. It just costs me $7.00 for 10 more wings. We came home and ate, the wings and the Rubios. Oh, my goodness is the grilled shrimp tacos yummy from Rubios. And the fries from Wing Stop amazing. Back to school shopping I hope is nearly done, hoping S like the shoes and backpack. The girls get a shopping trip to Justice to get a new outfit for the first day, hopefully I'll be motivated to take them next week. For such a little store it takes hours to get out of there.

Sleepless in Phoeinx

I had a headache last night at dinner, so I took some Tylenol and my sleeping pill. My headache went away fast, but I slept though most of So you think you can dance. But less than 2 hours. That's all I managed to get in the last 24 hours. Now I'm sweating doing 5 loads of laundry. It would have made sense to do the laundry in the middle of the night, cooler, and cheaper. But also creeper. If someone else was awake, or my washer and dryer was in the house, not in a separate room, that I must go outside to get to it, it would not be a problem. J went fishing with his uncle today, he hopes he catches dinner for tomorrow night. I hope not. S asked if I could take her to McDonald's for breakfast yesterday, and she set her alarm to make sure she was up to go during breakfast hours, so I knew how important to her it was. I was hoping to do a few other errands, it is much too humid for me. Between sweating,sinus pressure, and lack of sleep those won't be happening.

Relief

One of my goals this summer was to catch up on all my scrapbooking from pictures from January 2008 to current. After a few runs to Costco to pick up pictures, a few runs to Walgreen's to pick up pictures from disposable cameras, and two trips to Micheal's for adhesive and certain stickers I wanted for a few pages. I am pleased to say...I'm finished! And as a bonus to myself (since I was on such a roll) I managed to finish my wedding album! I think it's been 4 or 5 years since I worked on that, and yes I know I've been married for 17 years, but I didn't start scrapbooking until after R was 1. A good thing came out of just sitting down for hours and hours, and days and days to scrapbook, it really made me look at if I use all the tools and toys I have. It's getting harder to remember things like I used to. I pulled everything out of my room before I started, P set me up with a table in the living room, so I didn't have to put it all away anytime someone wanted to eat in the kitchen. I'd love to have my own scrapbooking room (with a computer). I do have a few impulse items I could have done without, and it helped having everything out to make really look at all the things I have. I have so much stuff it's overwhelming, but at least now I have it a little more organized, so hopefully I can keep up. But will I...

It's so hot

I know I shouldn't live in Phoenix in the summer, but that's were my husband and children are! I just feel the need to complain this morning about how hot it is already. It was HOT at 9 AM getting in the car, and at 10 after the car sat in the sun for 30 minutes, ugh. R had an eye appointment this morning. She is barely nearsighted, and even though she wants glasses desperately, I would like to wait until she really needs them to see. She is most mad at me. But since I've had glasses/contacts since 1st grade, I know what a pain they can be, she doesn't "see" that yet, only desperation. I really, really wish for a pool in the backyard. I think it would be easier to go out in the heat, knowing I could come home and jump in the pool and cool off.

Trick?

If you order a bacon cheeseburger with only ketchup and mayo, what would be on it? List all ingredients.

Witty and Fun

How come I think of witty and fun things to write here on the blog when I'm doing something else but when I'm sitting in front of the computer I can't think of any? And why can't I figure out why the spaces don't work on this blog? I hate the running all togetherness of different thoughts. OK enough of that. I haven't slept much for the last few nights. Most of my sleep has been from 7 AM-12 PM, I'd like to sleep a little more and normally. Thank goodness it's summer vacation, and I can sleep for those few hours in the morning. But I feel like I'm wasting my day. Another trouble with me being in bed at that time trying to get a few hours of sleep is my children sleep that late and then are up until all hours of the night. I'm hoping that tonight will be better since I had to wake up to go with J to the dentist earlier this morning, thus he had to get up too, and I woke the girls up also. Luckily last night I watched a movie and slept though just about all of it and finally fell back to sleep around 6 for 3 hours. It's almost time for S to go to the dentist. Yes, I was just there earlier w/ J. but couldn't get them both in at the same time and I thought it might be easier to remember one day than 2. Anyway before we leave I want to write done this funny story that happened on the 4th, not that I'll forget it anytime soon, but maybe some of the details. The girls and I were playing Taboo with my sister. R and I were a team, thus S and Jul were a team. We were taking the game very lightly and helping each other out depending on the team. S was trying to give Jul clues for a word, she said "my mom was one when she went with me to the zoo", Jul says looking at my red and white stripped shirt, "zebra" S says, "no" Jul says, "giraffe" At which point I couldn't stand it, being called a zebra and a giraffe, how would a human be able to change into an animal just because they went to the zoo. I started laughing so hard I couldn't stop and couldn't even complete a whole thought. Last night at dinner after J cooked steak-ums (which really were not as good as I remember them to be from childhood)for and the house was smokey and we could barely breath, but luckily the smoke detector didn't go off, and the kids and I were a bit punchy anyway were we reminiscing about the zebra and giraffe, (can you guess what the real word was?) We were laughing so hard we all were crying. Just one more thing about that red and white stripped shirt, the last time I wore it was at video taping at the dance studio and J says to me rather loudly, "you look like Waldo" and one of my friends says, " he's right, you do" Waldo and a zebra, I'm not sure I can wear that shirt again.

Camp group shot

We one spot one of the girls, which one and where? She's pretty easy to find. But you should click on the picture to make it a little easier for though!

Did I mention and just found out

I've had heartburn on and off for about 4 days? It's starting to get on my nerves. And I have a little tiny, tiny piece of glass in my foot from something I stepped on in the girls' room. Oh, and I think girls' should pick just 1 or 2 themes in their room. Bunnies, Hannah Montana, ballet, Princess, horses, Rattaoli, Wall-e, just to name a few that's in there now. It's a bit overwhelming. And I just learned that S invited my sister over on the 4th, wonder what she has planned?

Is the week over yet?

I miss my girls. Don't tell them that or it will go to their heads. It's been strange not having either one of them home. While I can email them daily, they can't respond to the emails, it's very challenging trying to come up with different things to "talk" about without making them long for home, and the one sided conversations are weird. They'll be home tomorrow. But I must admit every time the phone rings I'm nervous about answering, thinking something is wrong. Do, I just not have enough faith that God will take care of them? Or is it just a mother's heart? Or, maybe a little of both? Of course I have been praying for them constantly. Maybe I should have also been praying for me. J and I have had the week pretty much to ourselves. Although P did take him to see The Terminator late Tuesday night, and P was off yesterday. Monday J and I were out and about all day, as he filled out applications for a job, and I asked for donations for a church outreach. Tuesday was spend working on cleaning (overhauling) the girls room. It's been 2 years since I've spent a lot of time in there, and boy did it need it. Many, many, many trash bags later, and 8 hours, I feel comfortable saying I'm done. Although yesterday we had the closet to do, and 6 loads of laundry. Today I haven't felt like doing anything. I did try to go to the library to pick up 2 books for R that are on hold, but there was some program on today and I couldn't find a parking spot, unless I parked at the Walgreen's nearby, but I figured it would be so crowded inside, I would just go back later. Now later I just don't feel like going back, it's too hot, and I just don't feel like getting all sweaty again. P has to work until 9:30 on the 4th, the kids and I will stay home and hopefully if we get some propane to grill hamburgers (that's what J wanted when we went to the store earlier in the week).