Excuses

I am getting pretty tired of them. From mostly the guys who live in this house. One of who blames his disrespectful attitude on being a teen. I'm thinking yes he is a teenager, but if he knows he's doing it, why can't he stop doing it. I am very thankful for my friend who listened to me, and understood, especially when I am crying. The weekend has had it's ups and downs. Friday night mostly down. But I watched a movie with R. Sat started with a BIG down, that lasted until it was time for the girls and I to leave for a cousin's baby shower. Those next 5 hours were very fun, I really miss being with my family. Came home to being way down again. The girls and I watched a movie together and things stayed up because I went to bed. Sunday morning was the usual one person getting up before the rest of us, but waking me up. When I got out of bed 40 minutes later, I woke up the children, and kept them on track to make sure we'd get to church on time. While the one who woke up first, just took care of himself. He did try to talk to be as I was getting in the shower, I'm not sure what he thought he was going to accomplish by picking that time to talk to me, other than seeing my naked body. He had not talked to me for 24 hours. He tells me he's sorry, for what I want to know. That's about all we've said to one another today except where do you what to go to lunch. Of which we brought home to eat, and he sat like a lump eating, while I tried to hold conversations with the children. I cried though most of church. Message was relationships and are you a fighter or flighter. Based on Luke 15 and the prodigal son. At one point Pastor Ray went off on a side note on wives respect your husband and husbands love your lives, and added if there is discord the husband is the head of the household needs to make the first move. Well that never happens, it's very hard to respect when I do not feel loved and cherished like the bride of Christ loves his church. So after all my tears I had to take my messy contacts out and had wear my glasses to take the girls to their first Snow Queen rehearsal, followed by going to see the movie Fame. I loved it, but it left me with wanting more. S liked it, but she thought it went to fast and R was bored until about senor year and the end of the movie. We talked through some of the scenes, that could happen to them in real life and what to do if this happens to you kinda talk. One more down thing- why was it so freaking hot today! It's the end of September for goodness sakes.

I cannot wake up

I am so tired this morning. I'd love to crawl back into bed. I'm not sure why I am more tired today than on other days. It's gonna be a long day :(

Cooking

Even though I slept terribly last night, either coughing or weird dreaming, I have energy. But I feel exhausted. J went with me this morning to the co-op to pick up our fruits and veggies for the week. He drove and I coughed the whole way there, OK for 10 minutes straight, he even noticed. standing in the humid outdoors waiting I didn't cough once. I got tons of tomatoes, so I thought I'd try to make sauce again. Last time it was way to watery. It looked better today, but still watery and I didn't even add any water. J thought it smelled awesome though, guess we'll find out on Monday when we have it for dinner. Didn't feel like standing over the stove to make meatballs, so I just browned the meat and threw it in the sauce. Then while I was on a roll I threw a meatloaf together and threw it in the oven, browned some chicken tenders to make white chicken chili one night this week too. One morning this week, I'll throw a whole chicken in the crock pot, I feel so way ahead of the coming week already, it feels great. Now only if the pork chops and corn were cooked for tonight's dinner :( I did make an apple crisp for dessert already though :) The oven was on, so I figured I should make the most of it, it's still way to hot really to turn on the oven in my opinion unless you plan on really baking. I'll close from this funny quote from our old pastor. Just think...when you go into court, you are putting yourself in the hands of 12 people who weren't smart enough to get out of jury duty.

sick sick

S made it to school today, but I did not. She missed 3 days of school. Yesterday I had P take her to the doctor who said it was "viral". She started to feel better last night. About the time I was coughing so hard I threw up my dinner. I slept terribly and decided I better take a day off and see the doctor. My right ear is full of fluid and I have bronchitis. I will not be doing much this weekend, if I can help it.

Yesterday was plan awful

I felt awful yesterday. I did nothing. All day. I felt lazy. But I really didn't care. I feel a some better today. I found some antibiotics yesterday I had from my last infection and started on them. Saturday unloading groceries into my car in the pouring rain probably didn't help my cold at all. It's been at least a year we've seen it rain that hard and for so long in Phoenix. I was trying to hurry and I threw my keys in the trunk of the car while throwing in the groceries. Then I shut the trunk. Luckily I unlocked the car before opening the trunk to begin with. And had grabbed an umbrella. Got back into the trunk but couldn't find the keys. Called home. The line was busy. Great S is awake. That girl could be on the phone for hours. Called P's cell, but I knew he was in bed so he would not know I called. Called J's cell. Why he didn't answer I don't know. Tried the house again. S answers. P brings me the other set of keys. It takes him 30 minutes to get to Fry's a half a mile away, (he drove, not walked). It is now only barely sprinkling. But I am soaked. While I was waiting for my rescue I called my sister to wish her a happy birthday in Spanish as is our tradition. S had woke up do to the thunder and lighting. Went looking for me, freaked out because my car was gone. Then when I called home the first thing she says to be is "What's wrong?" After unloading the groceries and putting them away I put on dry warm clothes and started the laundry. Then I had afternoon errands to do. It was quite a long day. No wonder I felt so horrible yesterday. This afternoon the kids and I are going to the grandparents house for their birthdays. I don't want to push myself to hard. We may not stay very long. And S has a stomach ache. She says "it feels like someone either punched me in the stomach or stabbed me). She also has tiny pin pricked marks on her stomach area. I'm ready to go to bed now.

A cold and other random things

Yesterday day, all day long I had a very sore throat. It felt like it was on fire. As soon as I got home from school, I was coughing. My ears were ringing and and my nose was running before I went to bed. I loaded myself up with cold medicine before school today. I felt OK, all day until 3 and then my throat felt like it was on fire again. UGH. I am so glad we have a 3 day weekend. J joined the ROTC drill team. Which is great for him to get more involved at school. But that also means 4 days a week I have to go pick him up at 4PM. If I knew P would be home more often when we are, it wouldn't seem so bad, I feel like a single parent all they time. It gets old. The last few days at work were a nightmare, not the students but the sub in the learning center I am in for all but 1.5 hours of my day. She thinks she knows everything. But really she's a talker and not so much of a doer. I've been getting free coupons donated from local businesses for school for straight A's and Honor Roll students. That's been a job in a half. The best one I got was from Sardellas' is awesome they sent free pizza coupons for the teachers, and free slice coupons for classroom treasure chests, and free pizza coupons for straight A's and Honor Role students. Not much planned for the weekend except for chores and a birthday party for my FIL and MIL on Monday. J is going to help his uncle lay some new flooring too. And I hope to see my sister and oldest niece for their birthdays.