So...

It's been awhile. But I've thought of several things I want to remember, so... I thought why don't I blog them! In no way will I remember them all now, or in order.

My girls will be awesome mothers one day. I just can't wait! We took care of a friend's precious 3 year old daughter over the weekend. It was so fun watching the girls with her. They are really good with my great nephew, too, but since was over a longer period of time I really could see how awesome they are! And they even got along way better with each other! Here's some examples Sarah was awesome laying down with her until she fell asleep. They both followed through with getting her to listen to them. Rachel asked her take the paper napkin out of her mouth and when she refused, Rachel took the stuffed dog she fell in love with until she not only took it out of her mouth but threw it away to get the dog back. I high 5'd Rachel and said you learned from the best! It was kinda funny last night, I went to our church's Woman's Christmas tea and asked Pat if she brushed her teeth and prayed before bed. He forgot. Rachel says "he's out of practice" which I thought was pretty funny last night, until this morning when I couldn't find her shoes to take her to pre-school. Then I remembered I didn't get her ready for bed, so I didn't feel so bad.

Last night Rachel was so wound up. She has been taking about college since the beginning of the school year, but last night she wanted details about scholarships and costs and telling me how she's going to get a job when she's 16 to start saving for college. I think it's so amazing she already has a long term goal for herself!

I am quite tired of our toilets in our house. The hall one had been leaking and flooding the bathroom all the time. Pat finally fixed it last week. The master bathroom has had an issue with not flushing since we had it replaced several years ago. Last night I couldn't sleep yet again. Not sleeping is getting old. Anyway at 3:30 in the morning I got out of bed to go to the bathroom, I didn't turn on the light, I walked into water. the water pipe thing was pouring out water. I was so not happy. Joseph was still awake, so I went to get him to help. He threw the rug in the shower and threw towels on the floor. I didn't have the energy to clean it up better or fight with him. So... that's how we left it, until I go home this morning.

I now am on a thyroid medicine. Which is really a pain. Because I have to take it on an empty stomach and then can't eat or take my other meds for 1 to 2 hours. Today I forgot to take it when I woke up Sarah for school, so it was late when I could finally eat this morning, and I was awake almost all night :(

I made a goal for myself to go to the gym every day or I would have to walk around the block, which I totally hate. I was doing really good at my goal until I got the worst toothache I have ever had. I didn't go to the gym or walk for 2 weeks. The pain was relentless I couldn't eat, it was one of the worst pain I've ever had, and that's saying a lot for me who is always in pain. Went to the dentist, he didn't really no what the problem was, so he wanted to fill the tooth beside the one that I thought was causing the pain. I had to wait over the weekend for this horrid idea. The weekend was so painful. So, I see him on Monday, and he decides I need to have a root canal, so I have to go to someone else. Luckily they can see me on Tuesday. I go to him, and he says it probably won't help me to do a root canal on 2 of my teeth, so... he sends me to the oral surgeon, who I got in right away. Only my INR was 4.1 which is too high so.. I had to wait until it was lower than 3.0 So... after fighting with the nurse from my doctor's office I got it down below 3.0 on Thursday, but the surgeon was in Mesa that day. So.. I had to wait until Friday to have the tooth pulled. Then I had to wait over an hour while they checked with my doctor to see if it was OK for them to do it! The surgeon was just going to pull it in Tuesday until I said my INR was so high! My doctor doesn't work on Friday so... finally they told me what the hold up was, when I told them what my INR was they took me back, that's what they needed to know, only my doctor's office didn't even know yet since I test myself at home and call them, but I hadn't even called them yet, I wanted that tooth out and didn't even think about it. Once I'm finally back the tooth was out in less than 15 minutes. I was walking out the door when the nurse comes to get me she forgot to take an x-ray, so... I had to go back in, which took 30 seconds and I was on my way home. The numbing medicine they gave me at first wasn't enough so...the surgeon shot in more. On the drive home I could barely keep my left eye open, it was so weird. The pain was horrible for the first 12 hours after the numbing medicine wore off. I woke up in the morning with a terribly swollen cheek and a bruise that lasted for 10 days :(

That's all I can remember for now. So... when I can remember what else I want to remember I'll be back, unless I forget!

Frustrations- with FIL's girl friend

Her name is Virgina but she goes by Ginger. She is starting to bother me. She invited me to go to lunch last week. She cancelled an hour before we where to go, I'll sure she was nervous and gave herself a stomach ache. OK, whatever I was not excited about going to lunch with her.

Friday night she goes to the DV football game. It's windy and it's a little cool because of the wind. By no means was it freezing. She had to leave. So, I sat in the stands for over an hour alone.

 Saturday, my FIL offered to drive to Flagstaff to watch DV band compete. He drove more than 1/2 way there then she told him he would drive. I did not feel comfortable with her driving, she was all over the place.  We ate before going to NAU for the competition, she was so weird about paying FIL for her sandwich and only eating half, to save the other half for who knows?  At the competition I bought a program. She asked to see it 5 times, after handing it to her the 5th time I said she could hold it. After the last band preformed I went to the restroom, Sarah just happened to be headed in the same direction. Ginger came out of no where and cut us off! OK, I get sometime you need to use the bathroom right away, but not atleast say, something! Dad stopped to get gas, and while we were in the car she tells me where her hours is 39th and Cactus then precedes to tell me how to get to FIL's house from her's. Like I've never been to FIL's? I was mean could have said any number of things like - the house hasn't moved in 20 years, I've been there many times, but I said "yea, I lived there for 2 weeks" Ginger's says "Oh, when was that?", me "taking care of MOM.

It's hard for me to be nice to her, and it's hard for the kids to be around her. We are not ready to see hand holding by a widower of 6 months and the woman he is seeing and pushing on us.

Frustrations-health

1. Back pain is worse.
2. Tried some injections make it worse.
3. MRI confirmed fractured sight is pressing on some nerves.
4. Workman's Comp is going to have to pay, but I will have to fight with them
5. Lost glasses
6. Can't seem to loss weight
7. Sleeping has been horrible.
8. urgency has gotten better, but I leak all the time. Had allergic reaction to medication

Frustrations-house

I am feeling overwhelmed and I'm not sure I can even remember everything that's frustrating now.
1. We can't lock the dead bolt part of the carport door, well that's not completely true we can from the inside. But outside I can't get my key in or out of the lock. The bottom part the key gets sticky so it can be a challenge to get the key out.
2. Another messed up lock, the laundry room. I can never get it locked.
3. Refrigerator doesn't close  without about 10 magnets and we have to have a picture in the back to collect water that drips down from the freezer.
4. Hall toilet leaks, I am tired of washing towels and rugs every day, Now Pat has a big garbage can in the bathroom to collect the water.
5. Master bath toilet doesn't always flush. Never know when it will, or will it won't. I can't plunge it well, I'm too short and it's painful for my back.
6. Red carpet needs cleaned, it is so dirty. I can't do it.
7. The bedroom carpets are so gross they need replaced.
8. Half of the electricity needs on overhaul. Things are plugged in from the ceiling and some don't work.
9. Kitchen fan/light, the light part works but not the fan, I really need the fan on when I have to cook, I get to hot.
10, Kitchen cabinets  the bottom ones are going to fall to the floor soon.

Back and Mouth

2 and a half weeks ago on a Wednesday, I had 4 injections in my back to help with my back pain. The first couple of days afterwards I felt fine. But I didn't do much, until Friday night chaperoning on the band bus to the football game.Caring around my stadium chair and pulling ice coolers filled with water bottles. That was very heavy. 2 of us ladies pulled one and even then it was very heavy. But my back felt fine. But on Saturday doing laundry and picking up the house a little, very little cause my back hurt so bad, like tearful pain. All day Sunday I didn't do much cause my back still hurt.Then it was better on Monday, but I didn't do anything. And that's just what happens if I cook, clean, walk to far, life. I am in major pain. Yeah so I don't think the shots really helped. Wednesday I get to have the injections again. I can't wait. Ha. I had to help Sarah make a cake today, I didn't even care what it looked like I just wanted to be done, my back hurt so, and still does and I've taken my narcotics.:(

I have never experienced a allergic reaction to any medication. When my mouth was itchy when I started using 4 new prescriptions there was a problem. I thought I had resolved it by using 2 of them at night so I wouldn't notice the itching. that seemed to work for about a week. Then my mouth just went crazy pain, even my teeth hurt. I didn't want to eat or drink cause it hurt to put stuff in my mouth, that's how bad it hurt. I stopped taking everything now 5 days later I still have some pain but it's getting better! I will start to reintroduce 1 at a time for 3-4 days to figure out which one it making my mouth so horrible. I forgot the mention the frist 3 days of the pain, I could not get my mouth to feel clean, it seemed like that's what decay would taste like. I don't know how I would know that? Maybe it's the book I'm ready for bible study, Lazarus Awaking and that's why I thought it seems like decay. That's gone now, thank goodness, cause it was so gross I didn't want to talk to anyone let alone kiss Pat, too gross. He said he didn't notice anything but I just wasn't comfortable kissing him.

Is it Fall yet?

I am so tired of sweating! Early mornings as in before 9 AM and evenings as is after 8 PM have been lovely for the last week. But all those long hours in between, not so lovely. It feels like we are stuck in Summer forever. Yesterday I did the grocery shopping for the next few weeks, I started sweating while I was shopping, and it took me hours and hours to get cool again. It felt like my cheeks were on fire, only they weren't. Taking a shower didn't even help, there's nothing more gross then taking a shower and still sweating. I've also have a sore and irritated mouth all week. The inside of my mouth tastes horrible too. So the relentless heat, plus not feeling wonderful is really putting me in a bad mood :(

One more month and maybe just maybe it will finally be Fall in Phoenix.

Bored

I am bored at home alone. I could clean the kitchen, vacuum or dust, but I am tired and sore. I could do my bible study, but I just don't feel like it. Pat and Joseph are at work. Sarah is with her boyfriend and his family. Rachel is with her friends. I am just feeling sad, because I have nothing fun to do. Not that bible study isn't fun. I just wished I had a friend to call and something to do somewhere other than my being in my messy house right now.

Soup

Today I made chicken soup. I had a hard time cutting up the celery, because it reminded me of my MIL. She liked celery sticks, but they had to be cut very thin for her to enjoy them. And then as I was chopping, I thought of the last time I made chicken soup, I took some with me when I stayed with her. It was one of the last meals she ate. The last few weeks she didn't eat much at all. But the soup, she ate. It's been a long summer, and even though it's still freaking hot, I know my kids like the soup, and I had the ingredients and I am trying to stretch out our grocery money. I didn't realize how emotional it would make me.

All afternoon my house smelled amazing. But all of a sudden I smelled something new? When I went to check on the soup, all the broth had evaporated, and I have this stuck on blackness on the bottom of my pot.

I only had the chicken carcass and celery and onion in the pot, I opened up 3 cans of broth and dumped in the veggies I had chopped up and some rice. Hope it turns out...

It was very flavorless :( and the broth got completely soaked up with the rice. I think this soup was never meant to be.

Moving On vs Changes

After a death who moves on? Or who accommodates the changes? Pat's Mom died on April 13. A month later his Dad is ordering meals for 2, I'm not sure of the timing but On Aug. 26th Pat's Dad took us out to dinner to tell us he is dating, Ginger a woman that Dad has known over 25 years. The past at least 3 years she drove a car around the Grand Canyon when Pat, his Dad and brother have hiked rim to rim. I know that Dad really had been alone for a lot of the time in the past years with Mom not feeling good.And I know that he's a grown man can decide when he is ready for a new life partner. Today was the first family party with Ginger there. I tried to be polite but it was so hard. My heart just felt so broken. And I had to divert my eyes from watching them. He had his hand draped on her knee. So there is familiarity enough to be comfortable touching her in front of all of us. If I was a betting person I would bet by the end of the year, 2012 they will be living together or getting married. I. do. not.like. changes.at.all. I'm going to need some serious therapy. And so will my girls. 

First week of school and other ramblings

Sarah started her sophomore year. She has 3 tough honors classes. I'm worried about the amount of work it's going to be for her. She is a social girl and would really rather do anything than homework.  Football season and therefore marching band season starts next week. The band has been practicing for the last 3 weeks.

Rachel started middle school! She quickly figured out having 6 different teachers is not so fun. Hopefully once she gets to understand what they all want from her, she'll do OK. She also started an Ariel class, she's had 2 classes. She loved the first week although she was quite sore for days after. This week she didn't want to go. I'm not sure if it was just a it's that time of the month thing, or nerves. But she went she said it felt like her arms feel out of her sockets. But was quite excited about class afterwards.

I haven't been feeling all that wonderful again lately, headaches, stomach issues, itchy ears. Really just plan gross. I had blood work done yesterday and my numbers looked fine, PA will go over them with me on Thursday. I saw my Neurologist yesterday too he was really worried about me. He is sending me to a urologist, to see a pain clinic doctor and to have a back MRI. I don't have the MRI scheduled yet, but I do have the other 3 appointments next week. I hate not feeling well, and I hate all the testing, and all the doctor visits and the heat! I really hate the heat most of all! If it wasn't so freaking hot outside maybe I wouldn't mind the rest! The Neurologist talked to my PA yesterday because he was quite concerned about me. The PA  office called to check up on me today, and was told to go to the ER if I felt worse this weekend. I hope it doesn't come to that!

sleep again

So the night I posted of my sleeping issues I slept the whole night! For a whole week I slept great. Until I mentioned to Pat how great it was to sleep at night, on Saturday. For the past 2 nights I have not slept at night. Saturday it felt like I drank diet coke all night and the caffeine was keeping me awake. Last night I fell asleep a little after 10 PM but woke up at 12 AM and couldn't fall back to sleep,sigh. I am so freaking tired today.

Sleep?

I have a major sleeping problem. It makes me wonder if my sleeping pills work any more. I have had a very hard time falling asleep every night this week except last night. But I think by last night I was so tired I feel asleep because I was so exhausted. Last week I couldn't fall asleep until 3 am, this week, 7 am or later, which is really the next day. Then I sleep till 3 pm, which seems like I am wasting my whole day. But I can't not sleep, I'd be a zombie. I have even tried taking double the sleeping pill, extra pain meds (they make me tired). Not really anything stressing on my mind, I just never feel tired. I hope it's just not something that's going to continue.

Fifty Shades

Last night I finished the trilogy. I read somewhere it's the housewives version on Star Wars. I'm not sure why. The story is much deeper than that! Even though I cried at the end of the 3rd episode of Star Wars when Padme died. I cried at the end of Fifty Shades too. The story was good, Christian's life was messed up, and how he changed because of his love and her love of Ana. I have to admit I didn't know what some of the things were in the contract. I had to ask Pat. Who, knew he knew what those things are? And some of the things they did, I didn't understand, nor be able to do. Ana was flexible and young, that's my case anyway. If you can get over all those sexual things in the book, it was a very good read.  I've seen some pictures of what others thought Christian Grey looks like, and I have to say even those guys are good looking not what I have pictured in my mind. They don't seem strong enough or dark enough.

Really

I just haven't felt like blogging. I often think about it but just don't. I'm not sure why, because I sure wish I did so I could remember what we've been doing, and be able to look back at it. My MIL's death has really hit my hard. The first week I had some major stomach issues. Then several weeks of just wanting to sleep all the time, and having no energy. School ended and summer started and I still just wanted to sleep all the time. I feel sad about not doing stuff with Rachel. Sarah entertains herself by going to a friend's house or having a friend over everyday it seems, she does not like down time at all. Rachel does like to stay up all night and sleep during the day, which lets me stay in bed all morning too. I just feel like I am wasting the days away. Pat and I celebrated our 20th anniversary with Aunt Celestine. We flew to Oakland, CA on June 18th, and came home on the 23rd. It was a perfect vacation. We saw lots of things but had lots of down time too, which was really relaxing. I liked the cool weather but I wouldn't want to live there. It just seemed bizarre to wear a sweater in the summer. When we were walking around downtown San Fransisco there were several woman dressed with tights and boots. That just seemed weird. And of course Pat had his winter coat or a flannel shirt on and jeans everyday. Where's the sandles and shorts? Really the cool weather was amazing to feel, the 110+ temps. in Phoenix I can do without too. I probably would find something wrong no matter we I lived, not that we would ever move. But this oppressive heat it really getting to me. I have a huge headache today. I'm guessing the weather is changing. Ha! Really the monsoon should be starting. There has already been a lot of wind. I am not looking forward to the humidity it will bring. Then it will be hot and sticky out. I hate going outside. If I ever move into a different house I will make sure the laundry room is inside the house. Having to go outside to do laundry is horrid. Who ever designed this house did not spend a summer here!

Changes

I am not going to feel bad that although I wanted to post at least 2 times a week. Life got in the way. Since it's been a month since I posted I'll share why. The first weeks I was getting all my doctor appointments done for 3 months at least anyway. I then packed by bags and cooked up some meals ahead, and stayed with my Mother-in-law for 16 days and 15 nights. Father-in-law was in Paris for business and extended his stay to sight see. MIL has stage 4 liver cancer. I took her to her appointments. On the first one I got a speeding ticket :( Just found out that today. I was driving 62 in a 50 zone. The ticket it for $219. The worst part was we were almost to were we were to be and I got caught. That was on March 28. Which led to appointments on March 30th and 31st. On April 3 Pat drove. MIL's and her other 2 children and me to the last appointment. The doctor told us there was nothing more they could do. I had a strong feeling he was going to say this from what he didn't say on the 30th. I helped her get a wheel chair and took her to get her hair done. It was hard for me to hear her tell Angie (the hairdresser) this would be the last time she would see her. There was nothing I wouldn't to to help MIL. I did somethings I really shouldn't have been able to do. But God gave me the strength to do it. FIL came home the evening of Saturday, April 7th. The next day was Easter. We celebrated all a whole family minus Joseph who could not get off work. MIL tired fast. I went over to my in-laws house on Monday. I arranged for hospice care. She was in so much pain, it broke my heart. Tuesday the hospice care administer came. Wednesday the hospice nurse came and so did the doctor. They started her on morphine and stress medicine, then the doctor ordered steroids, O2, and a breathing treatment machine. MIL let me help her take a shower. Thursday it was hard to get her up. After she tried to walk for 20 minutes with the walker and only took 2 tiny baby steps, I asked her if I could please get the wheel chair for her. I wheeled her out to the nurse, and she sat in her chair for a bit. She was up for only 2 hours. I made her a strawberry smoothy, took a few sips and ate 4 bites by spoon. Drank 3 sips of coffee, before laying down. She slept all afternoon and evening. We had a party for Pat's birthday which was on Wednesday and Aunt Kate who's birthday was Friday. Mom slept and was in pain. Friday when I got to my in-laws, Mom was in a lot of pain. The nurse had just gotten there and agreed with me. I gave Mom her morphine. which relaxed her. The nurse had to straight cath. Mom since it had been over 24 hours with out peeing. A lot came out. The nurse had to go to the office to get a folly to put in. While she was gone. The Aide came and I helped her bathe Mom. She was in a lot of pain. I gave her more morphine and gave her a breathing treatment. The nurse came back and after looking at Mom's feet she called me over to show me the purple colorization started on Mom's toes, then we looked at her knees same thing. I had noticed the knees when we were bathing her. The nurse asked me if I knew what that meant. No, so she told me Mom is actively dying, come on we need to tell the guys. It was very hard sitting in the group knowing and waiting for everyone to sit down. I went right away to sit with Mom, Mark came in a few minutes later he after he started calling Pat and Mary. Mark and I cried over Mom and prayed. I had to keep trying to get Pat. I finally got through and told him to come now. I called his Fry's to let them know he wouldn't be in. In a little while I sent Charlie to pick up Sarah and Rachel., and Marlene went to get Joseph. Ryan was able to make it. All the children and grandchildren, Father-in-law, Mom's 2 sisters and a brother-in-law were with her as she took her last breath on earth and first breath in heaven at 9:35PM. I felt lead to pray over the body. And in order of how long we knew Mom we said our good-bys. Aunt Rose and Aunt Kate were first followed by Father-in-law. Pat and our family was next since Pat is the oldest child. Mary and her family next, and Mark and his family last. Mom was born on her oldest brother's birthday and died on her youngest sister's birthday.

Have a penny pick it up...

all day long you'll have good luck. Remember that as a kid? and if it's heads up is better? Today I found a penny (heads up) on the gym locker room floor. I wasn't sure what to pray for. OK, that in itself convicted me that I should be praying more. The list of concerns is great. The first thought I had was I hope the creepy old man (he's 85 years old and thinks he is in love with me) is not there. I knew his truck was in the parking lot, but I was hoping he was just in the locker room changing and I wouldn't see him today. He drives me a little crazy with his "love". God did answer that prayer and I didn't have to deal with him today. Lots of other things went though my head after I got that first one out of the way. I spent my workout time in prayer today. Thankful for that penny. I didn't take it when I left but moved it into a locker hopefully it will bless someone else today in some way.

Hair, Kidney and Chemo

Today was my hair appointment. I asked them to take it off. It hurt a lot. The front of my head is really hurting. It is red and raw. I asked Pat to go with me for support. They did give me adhesives so if I want to reapply it like for an evening out or whatever I could. The hair is mine. It just won't be stuck to my head 24x7. I won't be trying that until my head heals. I am so disappointed in this whole thing. I won't have to go back unless I want to and then it would be $95 each time I go in. I doubt I will ever go back. I saw mt kidney doctor yesterday and my left kidney that was only working at 30% 9 months ago is working now at 84%. The doctor was really pleased, and I won't have to see him for a year. The only bad part about the visit was my potassium and magnesium are low. I already was taking potassium now I have to take more, and I have to take magnesium too. More drugs. UGH. Pat and I were talking about this on the way to the hair place how frustrated I feel to have to take more and more pills each day. If I didn't have one thing wrong with me, which led to blood work and CT scans and MRI's I would never know I have all these things wrong with me. Which I guess is good. But still I take a large handful of drugs in the morning and a little smaller handful at night. I don't think Pat has had any type of blood work, or CT, MRI's, or even an X-ray in the almost 20 years we have been married. Not that I want him to be sick, because really I don't but it would be OK, with me if he had one prescription drug he could take with me! My Mother-in-Law started her cancer treatments yesterday. The pill that has a lot of side affects and chemo. She sounded pretty chipper last night and so far was feeling good. Hopefully she'll have a high tolerance for the chemo and not get sick.

Very, Very, Very Dissappointed

Way back in January, the 9th to be exact. Pat went with me to a place called The Hair Club. I have been more and more frustrated in my hair or lack of for 14 years. Over the past 6 months it has gotten worse. I wanted to try something to restore my hair or pieces added to my hair to cover up the bald spots. Because I don't have the right root system or enough hair that a hair transplant would not work for me. They showed us a hair system that would be added to my natural hair and cover up the balding areas. It took weeks for my new hair to come in. Last Tuesday I went and had it put on, It is one piece that sits on top of my head, and it was glued on, with some adhesives to secure it down. I loved it, Pat loved it, the kids mostly loved it. I think it was just hard for them to see their Mama with hair. The next day I went back to The Hair Club for them to check everything. That's when I get hit with $353 a month to keep the hair looking good all the time. The hair falls out of the hair piece and will need replaced every 3-4 months if I am careful. They never told us that. What they did tell us is every 4-6 weeks I would have to go to have it worked on. For $95 dollars each visit I (we) just assumed that they would add pieces to keep it looking good. We had no idea that the whole head of hair would need replaced. We could but another head piece when we need it for $1500 each time or join their program for $353 a month which would include the 4-6 week visits, 4 heads of hair, 4 chemical enhancements. But of course does not cover the hair products you have to use, which would be over $100 a month. I have been so upset. I just feel ripped off. I just want to feel better about myself. And not feel embarrassed all the time. I can't tell you how many people have asked my if I have cancer, it is so horrible. There is no way we could pay $353 a month well really more like $453 on hair, and even if we could I don't think I could live with myself with such a high amount just for my vanity. I have to go back on Wednesday and I asked Pat to come with me, I want the hair off my head I don't want any damage to my real hair. Pat and I ordered a wig which I am going to try. Wigs last about 3-6 months depending how often you wear it. Buying a wig or 2 every 6 months is way cheaper than this Hair Club mess we got ourselves into. I just want to cry,

March forward!

It's hard to believe today is the 61st day of 2012. Feels like a blink of an eye. Back on December when I was blogging about Christmas memories, I had looked for a scrapbook I gave to Pat early in our marriage. In it I had recorded how we had spent all our anniversaries and Christmas's all the years we have been married. I had kept it up until year 9. I couldn't find it. Pat finally located it about a week ago. Since then I have been been searching old diaries, the blog, and cards to figure out how we have spent our anniversaries and Christmas's. I found the answers to everything except, Christmas 2001 and our 16th and 17th anniversaries. I do think one of those anniversaries we celebrated at dinner at The Melting Pot, but I don't know which year and if we did anything else. That was just a few years ago. How can I (OK we, cause I asked Pat too) not remember. It got me thinking how sad it was that I can't remember these "big" days. What about all those little things that happen everyday. How many memories am I going to wish I could remember to tell the kids and my grandchildren someday? Awhile ago I was thinking, "Wow I really don't blog much any more", and I haven't kept a diary for 6 years. At that time I justified that the kids are not little any more and they don't say or do the cute little stuff any more, so there really isn't anything to blog. Well, what about just the ordinary? Aren't those things worth remembering? I think so. I am going to try my hardest to blog at least 2 times a week. Because my memory won't be around forever, but hopefully written words on a blog on the WWB will be.

It's been awhile :(

I think about posting often, but I don't I wish my kids were younger and said or did cleaver things for me to post about. Now they don't want me to blog about them at all :( Which may not always keep me from blogging about them I am after all their Mom and I love them and have the right to brag or complain about them! Sarah celebrated her 15th birthday by having her first boy/girls party. They were nice kids,, but I didn't like the boy who had his arms around my daughter. Rachel had her 12th birthday party a few days later. Hello Kitty. Those 7 12 year olds were loud all night long! Tomorrow will be Valentine's Day, but my Valentine has to take me out tonight, because Rachel will be the only one home tomorrow night if we go out. We are going to go bowling I hope it's fun! Added to say after our date- it is really hard to go bowling during the week after 5 PM, finally at the 3rd bowling alley we tried we were able to bowl 2 games :) It was so much fun! I am so glad I remembered to take extra pain medicine or it wouldn't have been as much fun. After we bowled we went to dinner at the Cheesecake Factory. It's been a long time since we've been there. Stuffed mushrooms there are totally yummy, and the French Salad was sooo good. The turtle cheese didn't let me down either! Very fun night!!!!

Sickness

My Mother-in-law has been dignosed with liver cancer. Pat and I met with her last night to hear what the doctor's are going to do for treatment. She will probably have chemo, surgery is not an option for her, the doctor she saw at the Mayo clinic was not a cancer doctor I'm guessing he is a liver type doctor. He is trying to get her in to see a cancer doctor this week or beginning of next week before the chemo treatments start. The cancer is in both the left and right part of her liver. She appears symptom free right now. There is no cure for liver cancer. She seemed pretty upbeat last night. Rachel woke this morning with pink eye. She has been fighting cold like symptoms for about a week. I took her to The Little Clinic and n0t only does she have pink eye, she has a double ear infection. My throat has been hurting all day, along with a headache.

girls' favorite traditions

I think I need to wait till they are older to ask them. Right now they said the decorating the shirts. One tradition Joey had that I forgot to mention is that we gave each child their own nativity set with manager on their 4th Christmas. Joey totally remembers getting his, and he loved it. We wrote what he said when we gave it to him and for the next few years when we got it out of the box, but sadly the box got ruined.