Back and Mouth

2 and a half weeks ago on a Wednesday, I had 4 injections in my back to help with my back pain. The first couple of days afterwards I felt fine. But I didn't do much, until Friday night chaperoning on the band bus to the football game.Caring around my stadium chair and pulling ice coolers filled with water bottles. That was very heavy. 2 of us ladies pulled one and even then it was very heavy. But my back felt fine. But on Saturday doing laundry and picking up the house a little, very little cause my back hurt so bad, like tearful pain. All day Sunday I didn't do much cause my back still hurt.Then it was better on Monday, but I didn't do anything. And that's just what happens if I cook, clean, walk to far, life. I am in major pain. Yeah so I don't think the shots really helped. Wednesday I get to have the injections again. I can't wait. Ha. I had to help Sarah make a cake today, I didn't even care what it looked like I just wanted to be done, my back hurt so, and still does and I've taken my narcotics.:(

I have never experienced a allergic reaction to any medication. When my mouth was itchy when I started using 4 new prescriptions there was a problem. I thought I had resolved it by using 2 of them at night so I wouldn't notice the itching. that seemed to work for about a week. Then my mouth just went crazy pain, even my teeth hurt. I didn't want to eat or drink cause it hurt to put stuff in my mouth, that's how bad it hurt. I stopped taking everything now 5 days later I still have some pain but it's getting better! I will start to reintroduce 1 at a time for 3-4 days to figure out which one it making my mouth so horrible. I forgot the mention the frist 3 days of the pain, I could not get my mouth to feel clean, it seemed like that's what decay would taste like. I don't know how I would know that? Maybe it's the book I'm ready for bible study, Lazarus Awaking and that's why I thought it seems like decay. That's gone now, thank goodness, cause it was so gross I didn't want to talk to anyone let alone kiss Pat, too gross. He said he didn't notice anything but I just wasn't comfortable kissing him.

Is it Fall yet?

I am so tired of sweating! Early mornings as in before 9 AM and evenings as is after 8 PM have been lovely for the last week. But all those long hours in between, not so lovely. It feels like we are stuck in Summer forever. Yesterday I did the grocery shopping for the next few weeks, I started sweating while I was shopping, and it took me hours and hours to get cool again. It felt like my cheeks were on fire, only they weren't. Taking a shower didn't even help, there's nothing more gross then taking a shower and still sweating. I've also have a sore and irritated mouth all week. The inside of my mouth tastes horrible too. So the relentless heat, plus not feeling wonderful is really putting me in a bad mood :(

One more month and maybe just maybe it will finally be Fall in Phoenix.

Bored

I am bored at home alone. I could clean the kitchen, vacuum or dust, but I am tired and sore. I could do my bible study, but I just don't feel like it. Pat and Joseph are at work. Sarah is with her boyfriend and his family. Rachel is with her friends. I am just feeling sad, because I have nothing fun to do. Not that bible study isn't fun. I just wished I had a friend to call and something to do somewhere other than my being in my messy house right now.

Soup

Today I made chicken soup. I had a hard time cutting up the celery, because it reminded me of my MIL. She liked celery sticks, but they had to be cut very thin for her to enjoy them. And then as I was chopping, I thought of the last time I made chicken soup, I took some with me when I stayed with her. It was one of the last meals she ate. The last few weeks she didn't eat much at all. But the soup, she ate. It's been a long summer, and even though it's still freaking hot, I know my kids like the soup, and I had the ingredients and I am trying to stretch out our grocery money. I didn't realize how emotional it would make me.

All afternoon my house smelled amazing. But all of a sudden I smelled something new? When I went to check on the soup, all the broth had evaporated, and I have this stuck on blackness on the bottom of my pot.

I only had the chicken carcass and celery and onion in the pot, I opened up 3 cans of broth and dumped in the veggies I had chopped up and some rice. Hope it turns out...

It was very flavorless :( and the broth got completely soaked up with the rice. I think this soup was never meant to be.

Moving On vs Changes

After a death who moves on? Or who accommodates the changes? Pat's Mom died on April 13. A month later his Dad is ordering meals for 2, I'm not sure of the timing but On Aug. 26th Pat's Dad took us out to dinner to tell us he is dating, Ginger a woman that Dad has known over 25 years. The past at least 3 years she drove a car around the Grand Canyon when Pat, his Dad and brother have hiked rim to rim. I know that Dad really had been alone for a lot of the time in the past years with Mom not feeling good.And I know that he's a grown man can decide when he is ready for a new life partner. Today was the first family party with Ginger there. I tried to be polite but it was so hard. My heart just felt so broken. And I had to divert my eyes from watching them. He had his hand draped on her knee. So there is familiarity enough to be comfortable touching her in front of all of us. If I was a betting person I would bet by the end of the year, 2012 they will be living together or getting married. I. do. not.like. changes.at.all. I'm going to need some serious therapy. And so will my girls.