Have a penny pick it up...

all day long you'll have good luck. Remember that as a kid? and if it's heads up is better? Today I found a penny (heads up) on the gym locker room floor. I wasn't sure what to pray for. OK, that in itself convicted me that I should be praying more. The list of concerns is great. The first thought I had was I hope the creepy old man (he's 85 years old and thinks he is in love with me) is not there. I knew his truck was in the parking lot, but I was hoping he was just in the locker room changing and I wouldn't see him today. He drives me a little crazy with his "love". God did answer that prayer and I didn't have to deal with him today. Lots of other things went though my head after I got that first one out of the way. I spent my workout time in prayer today. Thankful for that penny. I didn't take it when I left but moved it into a locker hopefully it will bless someone else today in some way.

Hair, Kidney and Chemo

Today was my hair appointment. I asked them to take it off. It hurt a lot. The front of my head is really hurting. It is red and raw. I asked Pat to go with me for support. They did give me adhesives so if I want to reapply it like for an evening out or whatever I could. The hair is mine. It just won't be stuck to my head 24x7. I won't be trying that until my head heals. I am so disappointed in this whole thing. I won't have to go back unless I want to and then it would be $95 each time I go in. I doubt I will ever go back. I saw mt kidney doctor yesterday and my left kidney that was only working at 30% 9 months ago is working now at 84%. The doctor was really pleased, and I won't have to see him for a year. The only bad part about the visit was my potassium and magnesium are low. I already was taking potassium now I have to take more, and I have to take magnesium too. More drugs. UGH. Pat and I were talking about this on the way to the hair place how frustrated I feel to have to take more and more pills each day. If I didn't have one thing wrong with me, which led to blood work and CT scans and MRI's I would never know I have all these things wrong with me. Which I guess is good. But still I take a large handful of drugs in the morning and a little smaller handful at night. I don't think Pat has had any type of blood work, or CT, MRI's, or even an X-ray in the almost 20 years we have been married. Not that I want him to be sick, because really I don't but it would be OK, with me if he had one prescription drug he could take with me! My Mother-in-Law started her cancer treatments yesterday. The pill that has a lot of side affects and chemo. She sounded pretty chipper last night and so far was feeling good. Hopefully she'll have a high tolerance for the chemo and not get sick.

Very, Very, Very Dissappointed

Way back in January, the 9th to be exact. Pat went with me to a place called The Hair Club. I have been more and more frustrated in my hair or lack of for 14 years. Over the past 6 months it has gotten worse. I wanted to try something to restore my hair or pieces added to my hair to cover up the bald spots. Because I don't have the right root system or enough hair that a hair transplant would not work for me. They showed us a hair system that would be added to my natural hair and cover up the balding areas. It took weeks for my new hair to come in. Last Tuesday I went and had it put on, It is one piece that sits on top of my head, and it was glued on, with some adhesives to secure it down. I loved it, Pat loved it, the kids mostly loved it. I think it was just hard for them to see their Mama with hair. The next day I went back to The Hair Club for them to check everything. That's when I get hit with $353 a month to keep the hair looking good all the time. The hair falls out of the hair piece and will need replaced every 3-4 months if I am careful. They never told us that. What they did tell us is every 4-6 weeks I would have to go to have it worked on. For $95 dollars each visit I (we) just assumed that they would add pieces to keep it looking good. We had no idea that the whole head of hair would need replaced. We could but another head piece when we need it for $1500 each time or join their program for $353 a month which would include the 4-6 week visits, 4 heads of hair, 4 chemical enhancements. But of course does not cover the hair products you have to use, which would be over $100 a month. I have been so upset. I just feel ripped off. I just want to feel better about myself. And not feel embarrassed all the time. I can't tell you how many people have asked my if I have cancer, it is so horrible. There is no way we could pay $353 a month well really more like $453 on hair, and even if we could I don't think I could live with myself with such a high amount just for my vanity. I have to go back on Wednesday and I asked Pat to come with me, I want the hair off my head I don't want any damage to my real hair. Pat and I ordered a wig which I am going to try. Wigs last about 3-6 months depending how often you wear it. Buying a wig or 2 every 6 months is way cheaper than this Hair Club mess we got ourselves into. I just want to cry,

March forward!

It's hard to believe today is the 61st day of 2012. Feels like a blink of an eye. Back on December when I was blogging about Christmas memories, I had looked for a scrapbook I gave to Pat early in our marriage. In it I had recorded how we had spent all our anniversaries and Christmas's all the years we have been married. I had kept it up until year 9. I couldn't find it. Pat finally located it about a week ago. Since then I have been been searching old diaries, the blog, and cards to figure out how we have spent our anniversaries and Christmas's. I found the answers to everything except, Christmas 2001 and our 16th and 17th anniversaries. I do think one of those anniversaries we celebrated at dinner at The Melting Pot, but I don't know which year and if we did anything else. That was just a few years ago. How can I (OK we, cause I asked Pat too) not remember. It got me thinking how sad it was that I can't remember these "big" days. What about all those little things that happen everyday. How many memories am I going to wish I could remember to tell the kids and my grandchildren someday? Awhile ago I was thinking, "Wow I really don't blog much any more", and I haven't kept a diary for 6 years. At that time I justified that the kids are not little any more and they don't say or do the cute little stuff any more, so there really isn't anything to blog. Well, what about just the ordinary? Aren't those things worth remembering? I think so. I am going to try my hardest to blog at least 2 times a week. Because my memory won't be around forever, but hopefully written words on a blog on the WWB will be.