Changes

I am not going to feel bad that although I wanted to post at least 2 times a week. Life got in the way. Since it's been a month since I posted I'll share why. The first weeks I was getting all my doctor appointments done for 3 months at least anyway. I then packed by bags and cooked up some meals ahead, and stayed with my Mother-in-law for 16 days and 15 nights. Father-in-law was in Paris for business and extended his stay to sight see. MIL has stage 4 liver cancer. I took her to her appointments. On the first one I got a speeding ticket :( Just found out that today. I was driving 62 in a 50 zone. The ticket it for $219. The worst part was we were almost to were we were to be and I got caught. That was on March 28. Which led to appointments on March 30th and 31st. On April 3 Pat drove. MIL's and her other 2 children and me to the last appointment. The doctor told us there was nothing more they could do. I had a strong feeling he was going to say this from what he didn't say on the 30th. I helped her get a wheel chair and took her to get her hair done. It was hard for me to hear her tell Angie (the hairdresser) this would be the last time she would see her. There was nothing I wouldn't to to help MIL. I did somethings I really shouldn't have been able to do. But God gave me the strength to do it. FIL came home the evening of Saturday, April 7th. The next day was Easter. We celebrated all a whole family minus Joseph who could not get off work. MIL tired fast. I went over to my in-laws house on Monday. I arranged for hospice care. She was in so much pain, it broke my heart. Tuesday the hospice care administer came. Wednesday the hospice nurse came and so did the doctor. They started her on morphine and stress medicine, then the doctor ordered steroids, O2, and a breathing treatment machine. MIL let me help her take a shower. Thursday it was hard to get her up. After she tried to walk for 20 minutes with the walker and only took 2 tiny baby steps, I asked her if I could please get the wheel chair for her. I wheeled her out to the nurse, and she sat in her chair for a bit. She was up for only 2 hours. I made her a strawberry smoothy, took a few sips and ate 4 bites by spoon. Drank 3 sips of coffee, before laying down. She slept all afternoon and evening. We had a party for Pat's birthday which was on Wednesday and Aunt Kate who's birthday was Friday. Mom slept and was in pain. Friday when I got to my in-laws, Mom was in a lot of pain. The nurse had just gotten there and agreed with me. I gave Mom her morphine. which relaxed her. The nurse had to straight cath. Mom since it had been over 24 hours with out peeing. A lot came out. The nurse had to go to the office to get a folly to put in. While she was gone. The Aide came and I helped her bathe Mom. She was in a lot of pain. I gave her more morphine and gave her a breathing treatment. The nurse came back and after looking at Mom's feet she called me over to show me the purple colorization started on Mom's toes, then we looked at her knees same thing. I had noticed the knees when we were bathing her. The nurse asked me if I knew what that meant. No, so she told me Mom is actively dying, come on we need to tell the guys. It was very hard sitting in the group knowing and waiting for everyone to sit down. I went right away to sit with Mom, Mark came in a few minutes later he after he started calling Pat and Mary. Mark and I cried over Mom and prayed. I had to keep trying to get Pat. I finally got through and told him to come now. I called his Fry's to let them know he wouldn't be in. In a little while I sent Charlie to pick up Sarah and Rachel., and Marlene went to get Joseph. Ryan was able to make it. All the children and grandchildren, Father-in-law, Mom's 2 sisters and a brother-in-law were with her as she took her last breath on earth and first breath in heaven at 9:35PM. I felt lead to pray over the body. And in order of how long we knew Mom we said our good-bys. Aunt Rose and Aunt Kate were first followed by Father-in-law. Pat and our family was next since Pat is the oldest child. Mary and her family next, and Mark and his family last. Mom was born on her oldest brother's birthday and died on her youngest sister's birthday.